Thank you, all of you for your words of encouragement, I have received more encouragement this evening from you guys than I have recieved from my former "Brothers & Sisters" in the past year, I am very very grateful to you all.
I have a difficult path to travel, I know this, having been raised a JW and having a personality which believes in throwing oneself into something 100% I find my life EMPTY at the moment. My business partner returned to his home in another country due to family ill health, now its me and my mother, a great woman who has stood by her son in everything. Don't get me wrong, its not been easy with her, she feels her son is now doomed to die at armaggedon and that I will never see my father in the new system, I know she is confused but also very hurt.
I have assured her that our creator is not how he is painted by the JW's, come on, why would he destroy everyone else but not JW's, Over the past year I have met many many genuine people who are not JW, its those ones who have really cared for me, will god destroy them ? What about all those currently helping in the Sunami crisis who are not JW, what will he say to them, hmmmmmmmmm, yes you saved many, you gave your heart and soul but sorry U R not JW so bang bang, I think not, this much I still believe with all my heart, GOD is real and he loves those who care to love and support all other, JW or not. Mulan, in answer to your question I live in an area with relatively few JW's, the land of flying haggis and bagpipes, even if they did come from babylon, I still like them :-)
Thanks again my friends, your help is much appreciated.