How do you feel about.....

by bagpuss 22 Replies latest jw friends

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  bagpuss

  going back to a kingdom hall?

  Recently I've had a couple of visits from JWs while I was at work. Each time they left a message that the CO was going to be visiting this week and that it would be good if I went to the meeting.

  I was really surprised at the strong reaction I had to the thought of going to a meeting again. The thought really makes me feel physically sick. I haven't been in a kingdom hall for 18 months and when I think about going I still feel a hint of the depression I felt during meetings and if I persue the thought I actually start to feel quite panicky.

  How do you feel about going back,even if only for one meeting?
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  Goldminer

  I still attend the odd sunday meeting,about once every3-4 months to keep peace in the home.I absolutely hate those sundays,feel extremely tired,make no effort to arrive early,daydream for 2 hours then rush home so the day doesn't feel completely wasted.I kinda like the conventions because I can see how badly the attendance is dropping and that's about all I remember when I go back home.

  BTW,the elders invite you when the CO comes because they want to make themselves look good;"oh see,even some of the inactive ones are hear to choke on your bull from haedquarters".
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  kwintestal

  I wouldn't go back because I would feel very uncomfortable with the "love-bombing" I would receive . Just the thought of it makes me uneasy.

  Kwin
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  mouse

  The thought of going back to the Kingdom Hall makes me feel ill. It just brings up all of those negative feelings again. The last time I went was for my grandfather's funeral a few years ago. At that time, I had not been to a meeting in about three years. I was extremely disappointed and hurt that many of the people there used that opportunity to tell me how sad my grandfather had been that I no longer attended meetings and that I really should consider coming back because that is what he would have wanted. So, instead of comforting me during a very difficult time, I was made to feel even worse. I think that was the last straw for me. It just really showed me that true love is not there and that I made the right decision to leave.
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  Brummie

  How do you feel about going back,even if only for one meeting?

  blerk! I'd rather go get a vasectomy... ;)

  Brummie
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  Frannie Banannie

  Ambivalent.....disinterested. Five years ago, I'd have probably been hostile about the notion of returning to a KH.

  Frannie
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  pr_capone

  Never have, will only for the memorial... and then only to drink the wine and eat the crackers. :D
  
  Kansas District Overbeer
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  kls

  Never ever . I would never walk into something i have been fighting against for over 25 years.
  
  
  
  
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  jeanniebeanz

  Just the thought gives me the shivers. <kak>

  J
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  Preston

  (In his best Jack Nicholson): "I'd rather have needles stuck in my eyes"

  - Preston