Here I go! Those of you who saw my threads, know that my grandpa was going to die. You may also remember the fact
that he went from the catholic religion to JW"S, may have had this wrong at first, but in 2003. We discussed the fact
that no one would talk to me at the funeral, at least not the witnesses. I had alot of advice, some said not to go, some
said to go with my head held high! Well the latter was my choice. Just day's before I had spoken to my sis-in-law who
told me I could go to the funeral, but it would be awkward because I couldnt speak to anyone. Well, today, I wanted to
jump in my grandpa's grave(urn) and roll over with him. Just about all of my family, and a few witnesses all talked to me.
The only two in my family that did no tspeak to me were both uncles, and both elders.(arent they the ones that
can?) Their kids and wives came to me, hugged me, and encouraged me to come back to the org. My grandma, so
strong, sat and talked to me for so long about going back to the truth. And all the while, (my cousin, who is the son of the
elder who did not speak to me) had his arm around me!!!!!!!!!! His Mother came to me, grabbed my face and said
"you hang in there ok?" My brother, sis in law, every cousin, and aunts and most uncles, some witnesses who all know I
am df'd, were still there for me!!!!!!! I was just floored. Still am. What I am about to say next will floor some of you!
I am going back!! I will still post, and love you all for your comfort and support that you have givin me in the last month. I
couldnt ask for more than I have received from this forum. It may be pretty sad to say, "for now, I am going back for the
fellowship of my family." But the long run will speak for itself.
I am sure I will get alot of nice comments, but more not so nice. I'm ready for all!!!!!!!!!!! I am not leaving this forum, just
making a personal decision that fits my needs. Riding the fence, one foot in and one foot out the door!!!! It will make
me a hyprocrite! But guess what, I would rather be that, and talk to my family, than not at all. So, good or not so good
comments I am expecting, and will respect everyones opinions! (And promise not to preach to anyone on this forum!!!!!!!!!!!!)