Did You Feel Guilty Because You Couldn't "Do More"?

by minimus 27 Replies latest jw friends

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  95stormfront

  The elders never left me alone with their "hints" that I should be getting to more meetings, going out in service, writing letters or doing telephone witnessing. They never believed I was really sick or depressed. The cure for every ill was DO MORE, GET TO MORE MEETINGS, GO OUT IN SERVICE, PRAY MORE, MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE!

  When I chose not to go to meetings anymore, I tired not only of these type of "hints" from my wife, but also the elders who used to drop by seemingly out of the blue, I susp0ect at her urging.

  As of now, I just "hint" right back at them with I like my life the way it is; no, there's nothing they can do to help me get back to meetings; no, I'm not interested in their frienship if it's contingent of going to meetings; and I know where to find them if I need any spiritual guidance.
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  Sunspot

  Yes. Constantly, even though I aux pioneered in Aprils, and once went on into May. By then I was even MORE exhausted and had piles of housework to catch up on. The Gerbil in the motorized wheel.........
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  franklin J

  I was young and felt that I was doing my share as a full time pioneer and MS servant and assistant book servent.

  .....but despite all that I knew something was missing . I knew that I wanted to do something else with my life; I just did not know what. I wanted more; just what I did not know.

  I was not satisfied.

  I did not have a life of my own or of my own choosing.
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  minimus

  Young people are made to feel guilty. If you didn't pioneer-------you were immature, worldly.
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  Doubtfully Yours

  Guilt is one of the biggest WTBTS tricks.

  I felt guilt a lot. Then the 1995 'new light' on the 1914 generation came out, which prompted me to investigate the whole history of the religion, which in turn made me discover sites like free minds and this one.

  I've since not felt any guilt whatsoever. They don't have a hold on me anymore in that respect.

  DY
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  minimus

  Do you feel guilty the "day after"? Or is it gone already??
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  franklin J

  after I left, I committed every JW "sin" I could; again and again. ( never did drugs; never wanted to . Sex was another matter.....)

  I NEVER felt guilty; couldnt wait to do it again.
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  minimus

  Frank, what kind of sex did you have???