WOW! That moved me, Gaila.
I can relate to soooo much of your words here reproduced. A very wise former witness told me once that leaving the Watchtower was like grieving after the death of a loved one - all the same symptoms; denial, anger, ect. How right she was...
It really is a circle isn't it? One believes the lies then passes it on to one who believes the lies, who passes it on to one who believes the lies, ad infinatum.
I regret at times all those whom I helped into the organization - I feel guilty for that. I had a Bible tucked under my arm too for 32 years.
Jeff