I disassociated myself because I felt bad at the way I was treated, but still believed I was leaving the "truth" and out of favour with God. I also fully expected to die at Armageddon and never see my "worldly" parents at their resurrection (they'd passed in 2001 and I lived for how I "might" have seen them again if they were deemed in line to be resurrected...no guarantees of course). About 2 weeks after I left "providence" connected me with a link that opened my eyes. For about 2 months I devoured everything I could about all the things "wrong" with the WTS and basically decided that it was all bunk.
That was when I *really* left.