by greendawn 24 Replies latest watchtower beliefs
My last meeting was a TMS meeting. The guy giving the talk said something to the effect that: If you are not a JW in your heart then you might as well just leave the organization.
I packed up everything into my Ministerial Servant book bag, got up and walked out never to return.
La Capra
Thanks for the correct date for the convention at Oakland. My memories of Jw times are slowly fading.
I did go to my mom's memorial in Dec. 2004. It was like an alternate universe. I was so out of it, but some dubs came up to witness to me. One elder even placed some kind of a tract about death with me after the talk. So bizarre! as well as empty and depressing. My mom had an amazing life before becoming a dub and we couldn't share that with anyone.
By the way, do we live near each other?
I would PM you but am unable to for some unknown reason.
Evi
I don't remember the last meeting. I know it was around July 1993. I was 17. I had been slowly winning the battle with my mom over having to attend...and then one day she stopped harping on me about it, so I didn't go again. I do remember going to the District Convention that June and skipping out on the last day to hang out with some friends.
Well, I went to the memorial in 1996. I don't remember anything about the talk...but I remember what I wore. That was the last time I've ever wore a dress. I had my then one-year-old son with me, and everyone kept coming up to tell me how cute he was.
My last meeting was in August 1999, it was a TMS and Service meeting. I had been a JW for 28 years.
I had been separated from my wife and family, for 2 years, because of depression, considered a "spiritual danger" to them.
Was beginning to learn the truth about the WT organisation.
But what did it that night was watching the JW Elder giving the item in the Service meeting. It suddenly struck me I had heard exactly the same thing year after year. The same words, the same gestures, the same references etc . I looked around at the congregation and saw "dead" people, glassy eyed, just staring at the speaker. There was no "worship" no emotion, no feeling, that you were there for God. You were there solely for the purpose of serving the Watchtower, not God. I never went back after that meeting.
Two years later I DA'd, even though it cost me contact with my wife and two daughters, who I have not seen or spoken to for 4 years now.
From what I've learnt these past years from reading books like Ray Franz's, the Internet, you people on this forum and what some of you have been through, some worse than me. I just never would be able to go back to the WT, knowing what I now know. I would just be living a lie.
Evita
We just might be neighbors. I don't live in Santa Rosa, but I do work and go to school there....
Shoshana
