To just lay it all on the line, tell the whole story right here on JWD, sign my real name and let the world know that I am not any longer wishing to be known as a JW?
Aside from a cleansing effect - it would prove just how close the WTS is scrutinizing this site.
Not that I really have a need to do so - but just wondering about how it would go. I don't really care what they do to me, to be honest. Wifey has a few relatives still in - so I would take the fall - but I don't think I would get any real satisfaction from it now - I think I am healing well from the spiritual abuse now and this kind of thing would serve no real purpose for me - just a thought I guess.
Has anyone done it that way - kind of like going out Butch Cassidy style?
oh yes, someone at WTBTS or local elders are reading this site. At my JC meeting back in 2003 the elders pulled out a long printed copy of all my comments here on JWD. The elders wouldn't admit to who told them to present that material but........
oh yes, someone at WTBTS or local elders are reading this site. At my JC meeting back in 2003 the elders pulled out a long printed copy of all my comments here on JWD.
Well then I'm not long for being an apostate in hiding. As much info as I've given about myself, it would not be hard for them to figure me out if they wanted.
Do I want to get caught? Must be the sado coming out in me.
I guess that I have no real intention of doing that, just a random thought in a tired mind last night. But I do think that it would be interesting to know just how carefully they do watch this site.
Joy - by the time they did that at your JC meeting were you already faded somewhat? I just always wonder why they bother to go to such trouble to cause others trouble?
Jeff - [happy to be no part of the cult too class!]
Hubby & I were trying to fade (after 40 years, it's hard to do). So we became involved with the child abuse issue. What better issue to stand up for. Even went to the candlelight vigil in KY while we were "in good standing". We were even posting on this board for over 2 years before we were df'd. We went public with the child abuse issue, TV spot, Newspaper article and even participated on the march at Brooklyn. That's when the elder's gave a "needs" talk (about us) and the shunning began. It was Sept 02. We didn't go back to meetings, hoping to be left alone. But no, the elders were waiting for direction from "Mother". Then in Feb 2003 they wanted to meet with us. Pulled out several pages of copied material from JWD trying to get us to admit to being "Jst2laws" and "joy2bfree". I walked out, saying they have no control over me. Hubby stayed to try and reason with his old buddies. They would not give us any reason for df'ing or 2 witnesses. Just said we were *gasp* apostates.
Just to let ya know, it took at least 2 years after having our eyes open to deprogram. Yes, many many years of being a faithful "true believer" takes time. So please be patient with yourself and enjoy life.
Just to let ya know, it took at least 2 years after having our eyes open to deprogram. Yes, many many years of being a faithful "true believer" takes time. So please be patient with yourself and enjoy life.
Your advise to me about 18 months ago in that regard was priceless. We were in since childhood, about the same 40 years. I have now felt the pressure release that comes with time - and I was happy to know that I understood it would take that time - thanx to you. It has been 18 months since we read COC, ect., and now we have felt the weight just lift off. Deprogramming is the right word. This forum has been very helpful in that regard too. Good friends cannot be beat, even just digital ones. I owe a great deal of my sanity to this forum and folks like you, Joy.
