I expected to be invited to gatherings...not ignored because my dad was an "unbeliever," or whatever their reasoning was. I'll never forget how crushed I was when a friend showed me pictures from a picnic, and all the other kids were playing games and looked happy...I had never even been invited to it..and it was held about a mile from my house! It made me wonder how many other times I had been left out. I wasn't allowed to have friends from school, and the dub kids weren't allowed to hang with me.
It was lonely, and I never felt loved there. I dreaded the meetings and strived to get out of there as soon as it was over...everyone else seemed to be in their cliques talking to others, and I was alone.
Now, when I get together with my true friends, it seems no one wants to leave! We always hang out longer than we intended to, and have great conversations. I know I could call them if I needed to talk or had an emergency, and they would be doing it because they like me and honestly want to help me!
The love you didn't get as a JW...
by JH 11 Replies latest jw friends
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Mamacat
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moanzy
a sister in the cong spreading rumours that I was a 'slut'. Some family memebers avoided me as well as I realized I suddenly had no friends. Found out a year later that was the rumour.
Same sister lied to my parents about me
In the hospital after an almost successful suicide attempt and brother visited me and told me I was selfish and should smarten up.
Was told I needed to be better to my parents and had no excuse. When we(my sisters) tried to let people know what was happening in our home we were treated as bratts and liars
Went down to my gramas funeral. 2days before I was reinstated and 3 days before her funeral I was informed I shouldn't be around any of them because of my status. Asked them if they thought that just because I was DF'd if they thought I didnt' grieve and did they realize I lost my grama just like they lost a mother, mother-in-law etc. They looked at me like "who are you kidding" and informed me they were just doing what the society says.
When I was disfellowshipped, I had a witness see me at the mall and actually run away from me to his vehicle and roll up his window.
And then there are the numerous family violence events.
I have a VERY hard time recalling the LOVE!!!
Moanzy