What JW Things Did You Have A Hard Time To Let Go? (page 3)

evita

Yes, it was hard to admit I was in a cult. After I left I tried to convince myself and others that they were just a religion like all other religions with lots of nice people and some weird beliefs.

Also, hard to let go of the idea that I was a bad daughter and that's why my mom shunned me.

The last one I am struggling with after 20 some years out is the feeling of disloyalty. I feel it sometimes when I post here. After my mom died I bought a beautiful journal to write in. It had lovely angels on it. I could not bring myself to write anything about my mother in that book.

Even though I no longer feel guilty about many of the things on Crumpets great list, I still think about them.

Someday I will really, truly let go. I hope it's soon.

Eva

sonnyboy

I used to be stuck on the everlasting life thing until I contemplated who I'd be spending it with.

If I was sentenced to spend eternity acting like a straight-laced JW I'd find some way to kill myself.

crazyblondeb

I had such a hard time missing my 3 sisters and brother that I got reinstated. Couldn't deal with raising my child like I was raised, so my bad attitude landed me another elder's meeting. I wouldn't grovel or snivel. I got the result I wanted--DF #2!

I do miss making the elders work for their titles. I felt that I was accomplishing something.

shelley

Alakzam

I had a really hard time letting go of my mother and brother, my friends, even the routine. I knew Sunday was meeting then service, Saturday service and Tuesdays and Thursdays gone too. Having all that time on my hands was a little daunting. Later came the guilt, once I had my son. I worried since I had left the organization this would give him a death sentence. Took me 7 years to realize I did the very best thing I could possibly do for him. NOT raise him as a JW. Raise him with love and acceptance.

Seeker4

The teachings collapsed really quickly. It was trying to rebuild a social life, friends, losing family - all of that has been the hardest.

S4

LouBelle

I found it hard to let them go as the truth. I'd say they have the most light/truth out of all religions today, but now I can confidently say they are perhaps the biggest liars out there. I have no difficulty in leaving everything about them behind.

What JW Things Did You Have A Hard Time To Let Go?