I'd also like to suggest highly that when and if you do decide to be baptized (contracted to the WTBTS forevermore) that you FIRST research and study the policy of disfellowshipment/ disassociation and the punishment of shunning.
Once you are baptized, you are now contracted by the WTBTS as a dedicated, loyal JW. Things change after that. Policies that didn't apply to you before, will so now.
So I recommend you google and educate yourself. If you need help, please ask.
sKally