...duuuuude i met so many girls, i came back different...
From where did you come, and you're now different from what?
i feel like i want a relationship, ive never had one...lol how do i get one started. do i just ask her if she would like to date me? lol.
I think you need to be a little more subtle than that. Dating and relationships are not like going out and purchasing a firearm, though after being in one long enough, you may surely want to, if only for the purpose of...anyway, they take time. Unless you're enrolled in a dating service, they won't necessairlly materialize over night. The opportunity often presents itself, when we are not looking, or when we least expect it. They don't just fall into your lap, at least not usually, if it does, then that's probably not a relationship, but a 6 month, one night stand. Take your time by getting to know people, those who are your peers. Let them, overtime, come to know you, as well. The last thing I think you need to do is force yourself on people, so try to not get ahead of your desire to " be " in a relationship, so much as you might need to just kinda' let it happen. The urge to merge often, for the most part, takes on a life of its own. You need not thrust yourself upon people, but ease into scoping out someone who you like and likes you.
As regards any dating, just hang out. Peep her interest and see what might happen. Does she like bike riding, or roller blading? Find someone who enjoys what you do, as well. The possibilities are endless. Time can be a wonderful friend to you, if you just take the time. Relax. Take it slowly. It'll figure itself out, without your having to push thru it.