Awe,geeze, thank you everyone! I knew I wouldnt have a decision yesterday, but I thought I'd have a better feel for it than 50/50, same with my atty! Technically, the written decision will be anywhere from 1 to 5 months away.
The worst thing I did in court was I hung my head and shook it shaking back some tears as the judge restated my "abilities" to the occupational therapist to get an idea of what I could physically and mentally qualify for for an 8 hour a day job: information clerk. you know, the person that sits at an information desk in a hospital, etc? A receptionist but less multitasking.
A lot of my feelings of defeat were when I told of my education: sophomore HS, with some college , but no degree. I wanted to yell that I was pulled out of school by brainwashed cult followers because they thought I had enough education to be a wife and in 1973 they thought the world was going to end in 1975! Between being a highschool dropout and a recovering alcoholic (sober since 1990) and married to 2 abusive spouses, I felt like I was being considered trailor trash. I have never felt that way before.
Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! Everybody for pulling for me. I may feel defeated, but I'm not defeated yet! My feats just hurt....
PS Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and FibroMyalgia are considered two sides of the same coin. The judge told me and my doctor they are not considered the same thing.