3 Months Today

PaulJ

3 months ago today my life changed indescribably for the better. Before I was always feeling guilty about leaving the witnesses and just counting the days until 'Armageddon'.... trying not to think about being bird food and getting on with my life as best as I can.

Sometimes I used to get nervous if there was a really bad thunderstorm.... i little voice in my head told me it could be the end.

But now Im free, thanks to this site and the people on here. Thanks to all of you. I cant explain what it means to fee, but then i know so many of you feel the same- so I dont need to explain do i???

You are all stars!

I also introduced my mum to this site, and I really think it has made a positive difference to her as well.

Ive noticed im getting close to Jedi-dom.... time for me to get myself a light-sabre catalogue and pick myself out a good one!!!

DelTheFunkyHomosapien

Jedi have to make their first lightsaber.... everyone knows that.

Star Wars fan boy mode off.

Congrats on leaving.

Ellie

Happy 3 month anniversary!

You also introduced your sister didn't you? (Diddi Di)???

How is she?

under74

no, you don't need to explain. Glad you're here PaulJ.

PaulJ

Ellie

Yeah she is fine (the last i heard) She lurked a lot on here reading peoples stories without posting much. I should be seeing her on the 2/9 as its our brother's wedding (he's a DF'd JW as well). I should see my mum for the first time since we both joined the site as well so we have alot of talking to do!!!

Del

Im not very creative so if i made one it might not work very well. Mind you, as Tij is now an Emperor, maybe i can have his old one. He served the Force well.

prophecor

Great Recovery Paul J. Like catching your favorite candy before it falls on the floor. Now Enjoy

Wishes well to you and ye' mum

Cordelia

well done,

thats great that you have introduced your family i wish i could do that, what was it particually that made you feel free?

im having a hard time at the mo coz i know ill haveto stand up to my family properly soon as they are expecting me to put my reinstatement letter in soon, so just wondered if there was anything that specially helped you that i could know too!!

cheers cordy x

PaulJ

Cordy

what was it particually that made you feel free?

Hhhmm. I realised that i wasnt alone, for a start. I realised that the standards i felt i had had to live by all my life were from the FDS, no Jehovah. I left the 'truth' at the beginning of 2003 and until 3 months ago had lived with guilt and thinking armageddon was coming at any time. I now feel free to pray to God again and live my life the best i can. I always always think about the film the Matrix, when Neo takes the red pill and 'wakes up'. It felt just like that, and also like a huge weight had lifted off my shoulders.

Im lucky that i have family outside the 'truth' also. I have a brother, a sister and my mum who are all ex-JW's. My dad and youngest brother remain.

All i can say is that you have to live your life as you choose. I have nothing against JW's, only against the way the FDS has misled them- i honestly feel sorry for them in a way. Their whole organisaion is built on people feeling uncomfortable in not doing what is 'seen' to be the right thing. They call it 'fear' of Jehovah, when in fact its simply their methods of control, using Jehovahs name as a front.

2 books that opened my eyes were Crisis of Conscience and re-reading George Orwells 1984. Both mind blowing in different ways. After reading CoC- i knew i could never go back.

I know it must be difficult if you whole family expect things of you, but ive heard of people on here who have gone back and they have been miserable.

Good luck!

PaulJ

Es

Thats fantastic many congrats es

Aude_Sapere

Happy 3 month anniversary!!

I understand the relief. You expressed it well.

Nice to have you here.

-Aude Sapere (Dare to Know; Dare to Have Knowledge/Wisdom)

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