Well my Doctor doesn't want to wait any longer. On Friday Sept 30th I have my Angiogram. I will be in the Hospital for the day but I get to go home for the weekend. I will be on bed rest until Monday. Monday Oct 3rd I will be having my leg Aneurysm surgery. I should be in the Hospital for about 3-5 days depending on recovery.
I am a little bit scared and nervous. I have a wonderful excellent Doctor. He answers all my questions and tells me to call him anytime if I have anything else to ask. He is taking very good care of me. I feel better knowing he is doing it.
I know I am getting help for some of my family with my kids. Great news though my Husbands Boss is letting him work from home to take care of me.(short term) I just did not want my family to take care of my kids and I 24/7. My family (mothers side) are all really hard core JW's. Nice people but very Witness like and they make you feel guilty about everything. I just did not want them grabbing my kids and taking them to the meeting with out me being there to protect them. Ever since my daughter was born I have had hardly any help. I have learned everything about being a Mom really on my own. My husband works full time and goes to school part time. So I am pretty much full time single Mom. I love my kids very very much. Anyway, I am not used to them being taken care of. So I am nervous on how this will all go. I just need to keep thinking it is only 1 week and then you get your babies back.
Then it comes down to my parents. My Dad and his new wife want to help me. I don't want my Mother and my Dad's new wife to run into each other since my mother is not yet an adult and can't handle that type of meeting(as well as my sister) my Dad wants to be there for the surgery and make sure I am ok(I am his baby girl). Then my in-laws. My mother and my mother-in-law are not on speaking terms(basically JW/Non JW fight) so they can't run into each other with taking care of the grand kids. My mother has nothing to do with My in-laws. I am treated kind of like crap when my in-laws baby-sit my kids. I Love them all very much I just can't stand the fighting and grudges. I have enough stress I don't want the whole JW/Non JW and Divorced parents all fighting. I just wish everyone could be adults about this. I am not looking for the center of attention but this Surgery has nothing to do with them. My Step mother is so wonderful. She wants to be there for me but knows my Mom might be there and will step aside and let my Mom be there for me. She is so wonderful I just wished my Mom could see that. My mother hold a grudge against me for seeing my step-mom and liking her.
I just can't wait until it is all over. In all honesty I think everyday I am becoming more mature. I have always thought and acted more adult like than half of my family mainly my Mom. I have learned through all of this Life Goes On.
Well I don't know when I will be online after my surgery. I will try and let everyone know I am ok. Thank you all for your love and support. I needed your words and prayers. Now I need some humor.
Love Brooke
