The story of my life (part 7- Bethel, the end)

by onacruse 42 Replies latest jw friends

  • onacruse
    onacruse


    Ya know, it's odd how the "big" things just sometimes seem to bounce off your forehead, rather like seeing the trees instead of the forest. Well, fwiw, that was the state of mind (if you can call it that) I was in, after less than a year at Bethel.

    I was reassigned to the night-shift janitorial crew. Among other things, one of my duties was as a night-watchman, which every night took me right up to Fred Franz's door, where I more often than not saw the lights burning; I almost dared to knock one night, but it was like 2 a.m., and I didn't want to interrupt the flow of the Holy Spirit into his brain (honestly, and I mean really honestly, that's what I was thinking at the time).

    Then, of all the things that had happened, this one thing just slapped me in the face: Knorr announced that no Bethelite was to wear jeans on the public streets. Now, since I was a janitor, naturally, all I ever wore was jeans; and so I asked my manager: "What the heck am I supposed to do? When I need to cross over to the other buildings (this was before they had tunnels all over the place), am I supposed to change into a suit?" He said "Yes, that's exactly what you're supposed to do."

    Now, you'd naturally think that, on the scale of all the things I'd experienced, this would be such a small matter that it wouldn't even register...but it was like the straw on the camel's back.

    Remember that fellow I mentioned earlier, who is now a "Nethinim"? Well, at that time he was "just" in the Service Department, and so I approached him. Of course, he knew me, and my folks, and I figured that if I could trust anyone, I could trust him. The conversation lasted for maybe 10 minutes...and it was the same slant that was to haunt me for another 20+ years: "Trust in Jehovah, and He will make it all right."

    I was shaking, literally shaking. I walked down the street to a pay-phone, and called my Dad. I pleaded with him to buy me a plane ticket to home. He didn't understand why I was so stressed: he never has.

    But, he bought the ticket. The next day I, as required, submitted my letter of resignation to Knorr.

    Knorr's response was simple, a very blunt paragraph: "Because you have not fulfilled your 4 years service at Bethel, you are hereby prohibited from being a pioneer, or being a servant, for a minimum period of 6 months." They dutifully notified the military authorities that I was no longer a full-time minister: no longer 4D, now I was 1A, and though the VietNam war was winding down, my lottery number was high on the list.

    And so began the explanations to my parents, an appearance before the Draft Board, and yet another attempt to salvage what I had spent my life trying to be.

  • Legolas
    Legolas

    WOW!!!!!!

    Words have escaped me!

    I can't wait to read it all!

  • Legolas
    Legolas

    I just seen it saying 'The end'! No No, did you get drafted? What happened next? When did you leave the lie?

  • onacruse
    onacruse

    I was "drafted" long before the Viet Nam War was even a gleam in anybody's eyes, and I didn't leave the lie for a long long long time.

  • dedpoet
    dedpoet

    It's been a great story onacruse, thanks for sharing it with us.

  • LittleToe
    LittleToe

    This reinforces my opinion that Knorr was a automated Fembot....

  • in a new york bethel minute
    in a new york bethel minute
    just seen it saying 'The end'! ; No No, did you get drafted? What happened next? When did you leave the lie?

    haha i was worried about that too legolas! but i think it's just the end of his bethel story... the rest of his life will come shortly, we can all hope!

  • onacruse
    onacruse
    the rest of his life will come shortly, we can all hope!

    Are you sure?

    The level of betrayal gets only more agonizing. Bethel was a cake-walk, compared to what I went through over the next few years.

    How is it possible that any human being would find a way to tolerate, and even excuse, this kind of behavior...this kind of abuse?

    I still don't have the answer to that question; I just know that somehow, for whatever reason, I found a way to muddle my way through; and muddle I did.

  • heathen
    heathen
    no longer 4D, now I was 1A, and though the VietNam war was winding down, my lottery number was high on the list.

    What's the difference between 4D and 1A? That was pretty rotten that they reported you to the draft board . The 6 month probation period for not completing 4 years was certainly beyond reason . WTH were they running a volunteer concentration camp or something ?

  • onacruse
    onacruse

    heathen:

    WTH were they running a volunteer concentration camp

    Well...yeah.

    4D was a "minister" classification; 1A was "ready and able to serve in the armed forces."

    Talk about a knife in the back: and the WTS handed me the blade of that knife, with my own blood on it, in thanks for all my loyalty to them.

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