I feel your pain Julia, I have real trust issues myself since leaving a year ago.
And dare I say it "men" issues. Which I didn't have before becoming a witness.
I do not consider myself a feminist as I quite like men, and I have always gotten along with them, better
than other women actually. But in the congregation women's opinions are neither needed nor wanted.
We are not viewed as having any value apart from homemaker or support system for the men.
At worst, the mysogynist elders viewed women as bad, mad or irrelevant.
This really eats into your self esteem, and you can start to believe it yourself.
It can really hard tapering off meds and that can affect mood as well.
Just take it day by day, that's what I am doing, waking up and leaving the truth is a big deal
it takes time for the grieving process to run it's course, give yourself time and patience and love.