Interesting that you posed this question, being that my husband and i were just discussing how much better i am, mentally and emotionally, not to mention physically. It seems that all aspects of my life were falling apart. I was suffering from Migrains, i still have some but not as many, they dropped from 3 times a week to 3 times a month, which is huge according to my nuerologist. I had terrible anxiety attacks, some that put me in the hospital, as soon as i left and got couseling, they stopped, unless i talk to my parents and they bring up going back to meetings, then i will have one. Im not depressed anymore, and my husband (who is "worldly") notices a big change in me and my personality. I love being free!!!!
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How Many People Are Less Stressed Since Leaving The Witnesses?
by minimus indo you feel better----emotionally and mentally since stopping meetings and living under the rules of the witnesses?
i've heard reports of better physical and mental health since persons have left the organization.
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JW VIDEO New Edit
by Corvin in.
complete video ready now.. jehovah's witness 'neath the tower of fear.
corvin
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MonkeyPrincess
That was intense, indeed.
Very well done, those pictures are all to familiar.
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I had a chance to share some of the truth about the lie with my sister!
by seeitallclearlynow inyou may remember i had started a thread about those of you who had been pioneers before discovering the truth about the watchtower.
i was concerned about helping my 25-year pioneer sister to see the true light, as it were.
well, she's been visiting for about a week and a half, and i finally got to talk to her about a few things.... .
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wow seeitall, that is very exciting. even though you didnt get a chance to bring up everything, you at least got to plant the seed, now she will go looking and find it out the rest for herself. thanks for sharing, it gives me hope that i will get my sisters out too somehow. keep us updated, ok..
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When does it get better?
by MonkeyPrincess inwhen will the guilty feeling of leaving the org go away?
i am feeling at my lowest point right now, and its terrible.
this after visiting my parents and feeling that awkward tension building between us.
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I dont know if you all realize what a tremendous help you all are, it really feels so good to have this support, so i thank you all so very much. I did get CoC just last week and read a page here and there when i get a chance or when my little one naps, so far its left me amazed and with my mouth wide open in suprise, of course sickend at the same time. My husband did suggest that i do something to occupy my time, so i got a job at Macys 2 nights a week, just a couple of hours so im not home and feeling depressed. Its been wonderful, i have met lots of great people, some co-workers i consider friends now, and i get a great discount! hehe. I know this will take time, and i realize that no one really has the perfect answer on how to deal with this, but i do have a wonderful therapist who helped me see the truth about the org in the first place, so to tell you the truth i guess i am on the right path and doing ok. I suppose last night was one of those nights where i felt like curling up and dying cause nothing makes sense to me anymore, i am confused and lost at times, but at the same time my life seems simple and free now, yet i grieve for my family and friends still lost in the org. Its a big ball of different emotions, i know most of you know those feelings. Thanks again for your thoughts, it really did lift my spirit. I will be ok, and im doing the right thing!!!!
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When does it get better?
by MonkeyPrincess inwhen will the guilty feeling of leaving the org go away?
i am feeling at my lowest point right now, and its terrible.
this after visiting my parents and feeling that awkward tension building between us.
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When will the guilty feeling of leaving the Org go away? i am feeling at my lowest point right now, and its terrible. This after visiting my parents and feeling that awkward tension building between us. They know that we celebrated my son's 2 year birthday yesterday, but i couldnt be totally completly honest with them and come out and say it, for fear that i would dissapoint them and get a preached to. Why cant i just be strong enough to tell them that i want nothing to do with the WT, and that i am choosing to live live my life on my own terms, not what someone else maps out for me. When does it get to be my own life, and not feel that guilt hanging over me that i left god. When will that nagging little voice in the back of my head stop telling me that im doing the wrong thing and that i didnt have enough faith. Are these feelings just part of getting out in the beginning, or will i always have them? Thanks for reading this if you got this far, i guess i am just so scared that i am doing the wrong thing, even though my mind and heart are telling me that i am right, cause so many things just dont add up, and i know that, but being raised in the org does something to you, its like a safety net, its the only thing you've known your whole life and now its changed, i thought it would be an easy transition, boy, was i wrong.
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MY SHORT BACKGROUND
by moses inwell i must say that i am glad that i found this site it is amazing all the things that i found that i have in common,it seems that the same problems and feelings are the same all over.
i can remember growing up as a jw although i never got baptized all the hypocrisy in the congregation especially amongst the elders children they were worse than the wordly children at school,we tried hard to stick to the truth my mom was a single mom and she did her best to raise us in the truth my mom is still in but as never given me any pressures i will attend an occasional meeting but that is about it, it seemed that everybody was always waiting for you to stumble or do somthing bad so that they could gossip anways this is my story in short, the jws are definetly a tough club to belong to although in the beginning they make everything look so rosy.
god bless everyone out there.. moses
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MonkeyPrincess
Nice to meet you moses, hope to hear a little more about you. You will find plenty of support here, just as i have, its a wonderful place to be. I remember that same feeling among the witnesses, no one here will judge you though.
Take care, MonkeyPrincess
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It just doesn't add up
by micheal in.
was there any particular event, teaching, experience where it all came together for you when you really questioned the "truth", or believed it wasn't it couldn't be god's organization?.
when did you realize and say to yourself, this just doesn't add up?
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it would have to be when my father told me that if i dont get reinstated soon, that my son (only 1 year old at the time) would be killed at Armageddon, and it would be all my fault. I thought to myself that the true god would not be that cruel and sadistic, So that ended it for me. Then hearing about all the UN stuff really solidified it also.
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My dad needs a heart transplant
by MonkeyPrincess inaccording to his doctor, my dads heart is beating at 29 beats per minute right now, and getting progressivley weaker.
he advised my father to get on the transplant list for a new heart.
of course my father is being very stubborn about this.
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Thanks everyone, it means alot that you are all here for me, it feels like a waiting game between my dad and the doctors, like one will bend for the other, but its not happening. I will let know what happens. Thank you for the links Xandria, i appreciate it!
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My dad needs a heart transplant
by MonkeyPrincess inaccording to his doctor, my dads heart is beating at 29 beats per minute right now, and getting progressivley weaker.
he advised my father to get on the transplant list for a new heart.
of course my father is being very stubborn about this.
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According to his doctor, my dads heart is beating at 29 beats per minute right now, and getting progressivley weaker. He advised my father to get on the transplant list for a new heart. Of course my father is being very stubborn about this. My mom said she knows of a hospital that does bloodless surgeries, and that she is going to try and get him in there, or with a doctor at Stanford that will do a bloodless heart transplant. The problem is that they might not be able to find a doctor to do it, and if they dont then my dad will not have the surgery. I have been so upset over this whole thing. My parents have been speaking with me and good with me, even though im df'd. Im just not ready to lose my dad, not when there is a possibility that he can get better. I saw him today and he was just so weak and pale looking, it was aweful. Anyways, i guess i am mostly venting here. Has this happend to anyone else, or any other experiences that you know of? Thanks!
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What did you GIVE for Christmas?
by Tatiana ini'll tell what i got on the other thread later, but i'd like to know what you all gave this year.
i gave my oldest son a set of chinese exercise balls in a beautiful silk box.
he needs to relax!!.
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MonkeyPrincess
For my very first Christmas ever, my 'wordly' husband says i was a natural at it :)
I gave...
my husband a digital camera, some dvd's, and a kenneth cole watch
my son got, little people airport set, basketball hoop with balls, footballs and soccor balls, tonka truck, leap pad learning set and books, clothes, and so much more that i cant even remember, all i know is that i can hardly fit all his stuff in his room, i need to learn to set a pace cause he is not even 2 years old yet.
my sister got, a cell phone, waldon books gift card, the scene it game board, pens and notebook (she loves to write), and candy.
neice, a laptop learning computer
nephew, a desktop learning computer
neice, dora the explorer bingo game
neice, the original memory game
mother and father in law, dvd's
Christmas is FUN!!! boy, i never knew what i missed out on, its so sad!