I was raised in the Org my whole life. I totally agree with what Flower said. It is like losing your identity and trying to find it, not knowing who you really are, and what
your really like, since its always been told to you. Its a struggle daily, but i also am finding that i am a much stronger person that i thought i was.
MonkeyPrincess
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Raised in the Truth vs. New Converts
by prophecor inwhile viewing many of your experiences here, its strange to hear the problems that have resulted from many of you being in " the truth ".
i'm speaking with regard to those who've been in most of their lives and have never really known much else.
when i finally came in i had spent a majority of my life, doing the things of the world.
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Did You Realize Jehovah & The Organization Are One In The Same?
by minimus inwhen you were a jw, did it ever dawn on you that the organization and god were pretty much the same thing?
if you disobeyed an organizational rule you were disobeying jehovah god.
if you missed an organizational meeting you were showing lack of appreciation to god himself.
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MonkeyPrincess
Yes, this is so true. I still find myself with this same thinking and still trying to seperate the two, its so hard when its so ingrained in you.
Gosh, what a load of crap!
MonkeyPrincess
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Disfellowshipping and Shunning- is it scriptual?
by MonkeyPrincess intonight my sister told me our dad had mentioned that when you do not associate yourself with a disfellowshipped person, relative or not, you are honoring god and following the bible's guidlines.
i asked my sister if she knew where in the bible it states that.
she said she did not know, but knows that its in there, and knows that it relates something to that affect.
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MonkeyPrincess
Tonight my sister told me our dad had mentioned that when you do not associate yourself with a disfellowshipped person, relative or not, you are honoring god and following the bible's guidlines.
I asked my sister if she knew where in the bible it states that. She said she did not know, but knows that its in there, and knows that it relates something to that affect. We are both disfellowshipped
and shunned by our family. Since i do not have a bible to research it, i was wondering if anyone knew where in the bible it would state that, and what the scripture says exactly. I just want to know in case
my dad has the same discussion with me, then i can be prepared. Keep in mind he told her this while reminding her she is not allowed in their lives anymore, unless dying or returning to the org.So, if anyone has any info, can you please share, its much appriciated.
If this has been posted before, i apologize.
Many Thanks, MonkeyPrincess
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Anyone in Northern California?
by TweetieBird injust wondering if there is anyone from northern california.
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I thought where i live was considered North, but most of you are quite a bit farther up than i am. Im in Los Gatos, South of San Francisco. Its pretty here
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How does one forgive ??? PLEASE, I really need your help, PLEASE ???
by run dont walk inwell, the worst case scenario happened in my life,.
i had a topic awhile back about, have you ever thought about leaving your mate for someone else??.
i never updated as much as i should of ?.
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run, i am so sorry this happend to you, it is a terrible situation, and as much as i wish i had some advice for you, i really dont.
all i know is what i see from the outside looking in..
my sister cheated on her husband, even though he said he forgave her and tried to work on their relationship, he would ultimatly throw it in her face everytime an argument erupted. the problem is that you can try and put it behind you, but it might still always be there in the back of your mind, and you would both be miserable. If you are both willing to work on your relationship, you should seek couseling together, its really the best way to solve your problems by getting them out on the table and facing them. i wish you the best of luck, no one deserves to be put in this situation, just know that its not all your fault.Hugs to you!!!!!
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"even if it wasn't the truth,i would rather live with it then without it"
by MonkeyPrincess in"life is so much easier (for me anyways) keeps me sane with all the stuff that goes on in the world,, or maybe thats my passive personality" .
that is the comment my (younger) sister made to me while we were on chat the other day.
i tried to explain to her to do research on the wtbts before she really decided this is what she wanted for her life.
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Thank you all so much for your comments, you dont realize how normal i feel when im here.
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Are you dressing up for Holloween?
by Elsewhere in.
i'm thinking about dressing as martha stewart.
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Im going to be a black cat, and my 2 year old is going as Batman.. that was his first choice.
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"even if it wasn't the truth,i would rather live with it then without it"
by MonkeyPrincess in"life is so much easier (for me anyways) keeps me sane with all the stuff that goes on in the world,, or maybe thats my passive personality" .
that is the comment my (younger) sister made to me while we were on chat the other day.
i tried to explain to her to do research on the wtbts before she really decided this is what she wanted for her life.
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"life is so much easier (for me anyways) keeps me sane with all the stuff that goes on in the world,, or maybe thats my passive personality"
That is the comment my (younger) sister made to me while we were on chat the other day. I tried to explain to her to do research on the WTBTS before she really decided this is what she wanted for her life. Im so hurt because i am losing my family one by one, its happening like a movie in slow motion. Would have it been better if it just all happend really sudden and fast, i dont know.
By the way, the whole conversation came up when we were talking about our other sister and her being df'd just like me. Apparently my dad told my sister that she is not welcome to be in their lives anymore, or in their home, and unless she is on her death bed, not to contact them. How hurtful that is! I know i am next to get the axe, im ready for it, i think!
Is this what most witnesses think, and the reason they stay, i wonder.. its not something i would consider, especially if i had doubts. What do you think?
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What's the first worldly thing you did when you left?
by Nosferatu inafter you left the jws, what was the first worldly thing you did?
the day after my last meeting, i got really really drunk.
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I got a tattoo.
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When & How Did You Get The JW ULTIMATUM?
by Corvin inflyinhighnow's recent post about the nephew and his ultimatum email got me to thinking .
when and how did you get the ultimatum (to come back to jehovah or lose my love and friendship/association) and from whom?.
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I get the ultimatum weekly, not kidding either. My parents and younger sister are still very strong jw's and tell me that they will not be able to speak to me any longer unless i make attempts to be reinstated. Then they will call me a week later and ask me to come over and bring my son (the ONLY grandchild and nephew). I realize they only want me over so they can see their grandson, but its nice when i get to go over and its like old times. But, a few days after the visit, i get the call again with a blow out of arguments about how i am a terrible person, playing with my son's life.. yada yada yada, you get the picture. Anyhow, thats what my life is like these days, well for the past year to tell you the truth, i am actually looking forward to my parents finally telling me that im not welcome over anymore so that i dont have to deal with these head games. We just had our blow out on wednesday, so it looks like i will be invited over again next week, yup.. looking forward to that!