Xbehere: Welcome to the board!
I really enjoyed reading about your "feelings". You see, when I saw that Dateline Special it hit me about like it did you.
I too was raised as a JW...published for 35 years...but after seeing the Dateline Special, that shook my faith as a JW. I had always been proud but after seeing it I said: "how can I go from door to door, when we are no different than any other religion".
We relocated about 6 months later and had a horrible experience from a so called "welcoming visit from 2 elders"...
I have not been at a meeting where I live for almost 8 months. Both me and my husband are "fading"...It is working well, since we are new here. No one has checked on me...they have my husband, but I am "invisible" to the elders., because I am a "woman". I have family that are Jw's in other states. My sons are JW's...so when I visit them I will go to some meetings...but I am careful as to subtley talking to them about things I have learned.
Everybody's situation and how they view the "new things learned" is different. You have to do what feels "right" for you. Nobody is here to tell you how to handle your situation. You have received some excellent suggestions from the posters.
I hope you find some comfort in this board. I know I have...and I have also met some of the posters, which is quite an uplifting experience. They are people just like you, that have had their "rose colored glasses" removed, tired of hypocrisy and lack of love.
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