Welcome Lordfader
Me and my hubby have been fading for a year.
We were both raised as JW's and lived it for 30 years....
We don't live near any relatives, but we have to act like we are still going and doing all the JW stuff, cause we know they will shun us if we are not doing anything. I feel like I am a "double agent"....but we know the WTBS lies to protect themselves and that was apparent when reading COC and ISOCF....
So for me, I live in fear.
I understand the way you feel........they are happy in their denial....maybe their "rose colored glasses" will crack one day.
My rose colored glasses were cracked when I saw that Dateline episode 2 years ago about the Pedophile problem in the WTBS. I couldn't stand the hypocrisy!!! The UN issue of their spiritual adultery for 10 years also was pure hypocrisy.
I think there are a lot more fader's than you think, and in fact they may be attending your KH as well....They are acting the part because they know their family will "shun" them....and for now, they can't take that stress.
I wish I could say something to make you feel better....just hang in there...maybe meet with some from the board in your area...That bolsters your feeling what you are doing is right.
hugs,
Codeblue