just curious how we all think.. what prompted or influenced your choice of username for this forum?.
there are some really amazing names, and it would be great to hear the stories behind them.... mine was nothing fancy.
i just felt "stuck in a rut too" along with so many others.
MissFit: I wanted a play on words. I always felt like a misfit in my life growing up .
First as a foster child, then as a JW both at school and at the hall.
Later as an adult when I married "out of the Truth".
Now that I know TTATT, I am not a misfit-
but more fit, ready to live my life. So now I'm MissFit.
i just recently stopped attending.
i keep getting messages, emails, texts and voice mails asking if i'm ok. they all say the exact same thing.
it's creepy and a bit scary.
This is just another way they can count time. Someone is problably assigned to text people who are absent at meetings to encouage them.
This happened to me a couple of years ago when I stopped going to meetings after being pretty regular.
I would get a weekly text reminding me about the meeting or summing up the last meeting I missed. They didn't identify themselves.
I first I was puzzled,but I had a pretty good idea who it was. One of the elders was sending it - I think it was supposed to be encouraging those who were absent. Like a sheperding call.
I never replied back. Sometimes my old study conductor will send me a text to say she misses me or to remind me of a special day coming up.
I prefer that to when a service group would stop by my place of work to give me the latest nagazine.
“oh mommy!” the little girl in the floral dress cooed to her mother.. i felt the same.. that splash of vivid brightness on such a perfect creature takes your breath away!the delicate robin whose crimson colored breast chased ugliness from sight delighted little children on starbucks patio.. better still, her nest in a nearby tree stirs a keen anticipation for summer’s hatchling sounds of chirpy appetites and a renewal of hope for our futures, the little things and we ourselves.. i barely spy her nest, exquisitely fashioned, basket-like; roundish and stout.
she flits charmingly now...and again keeping custodial observance of her eggs.
such treasures!
Now you did it *sniff* my eyes are leaking. Must be allergies. *sniff*
Now write something funny.
watchtower insisted that members be "approved" by their rbc before going to the disaster area.
she told me how she went with her husband on that bus and a few other wives of other rbc workers went also.
she told me how their two children went with them on that bus.
Thanks for sharing. Sometimes it is a balancing act. I think it was thoughtful of you to consider your mom's situation as you answered.
caws for concern!
malone.
(a vagrant escapee from a butterfly net and he's on starbucks' patio jabbering non-stop at me!).
I'm glad you did get it down. It was hilarious.
a huge man to my right has leaned in.
why do strangers talk to me without provocation on my part?
he is an enormous man--a man of color.
Thanks Terry. I was able to picture him in my mind. Maybe one day you can put all these characters in a story.
What do you think would happen if he were to meet Psyedelic Jezabel?
psychedelic jezebel _________.
she’s psychedelic jezebel.
it says so on her vw bus, tie-dye blouse, and her handmade jewelry.. there she is now in her garden; child of the 60’s; a cinder from a long ago passed comet.she shoots me the “peace sign”.
I loved your discription. I always enjoy your writing. Thanks.
i dont know where to start so why not at the beginning.
i was seeing this girl and we hit it off great chemistry.
it went from a physical to a deeper relationship.
Please do her a big favor. Walk away unless you are willing to commit and dedicate your life to the JW organization. Do not go in thinking you can get her out. She is in guilt and, or mayrter
mode right now. She is being told she needs to prove her love and loyalty to the organization and God. If she chooses you she has abandoned her god and sided with Satan and will be judged unworthy of everlasting life.
But if she can "save " you and get you baptized and in good standing, she can marry you with a clean conscience. Right now she can't tell you that because she needs to tell the elders that you are really honest hearted and not studying just to marry her.
She can't sit by you at the meetings because that is a declaration of dating or commitment ,which she can't do because you are not baptized. It's about appearances.
I was in the same situation except my husband never tried to study . I chose him over Jehovah and felt the nagging guilt for over 30 years every time I went to meeting by myself.
I was physical with my guy before marriage and was eaten up with guilt. I am not sure if we would still be together if he hadnt proposed right away. I needed that commitment. My case was different because after marrying him, I dropped out because of guilt. Then came back to the JWS because of guilt and family. I avoided being excommunicated because I waited a year and confessed repentedly. Since I was already married and very sorry they privately reproved me and I spent 20-30 years with guilt until I found out every thing I was taught was a lie and my husband and I are not doomed to everlasting destruction.
I love my husband, I now think it was the best decision I made but it took a long time to get there.
i salute you.
many of you, like me, are probably under enormous emotional pressure, whether from a lingering false sense of guilt from your indoctrination, whether from "invitations," and assumptions that you'll naturally be coming, or whether from outright emotional blackmail, even begging and pleading.
i am thinking of you whoever you are, all of you, even though i don't know you in person.
This will be the fourth memorial I have not attended. I considered myself "out" after the first one I skipped.
I understand the point Nathan was
making but it takes awhile to get there.
Not going is a big deal...it makes a statement in the JW world...if you are not deathly sick and do not attend.
My daughters were shocked the first year I did not go and did not ask them to go (they are not "in" though I tried) The memorial was our only tradition as a family...sad but true. When I did not go they knew I was "out".
I work tonight. I didn't even consider asking to leave early or switch with someone like I would have 4 years ago.
Freedom.
i'm a new member so wanted to say 'hi'.
i live in the u.k, was born in, fell away as an unbaptised publisher, got baptised in my 30s for reasons i'm retrospectively unsure of, and lost my faith about five years ago around the time of the original a.r.c.
now, being unable to leave is making me physically, emotionally and mentally ill.. i have been visiting this forum for a couple of years and wanted to post my first message to see if anyone has attended, heard or watched the zone visit broadcast thing happening this month?
Welcome
I understand where you are coming from. Take a deep breath and just. breathe. Come on in and take look around.
You have time to figure things out. Take baby steps and take things at your own pace.
I understand how that voice can keep you tethered. I lived for years considering myself as a dead person walking. I was resigned to be destroyed and didn't consider myself as worthy of paradise.
I would yo yo back and forth trying to be spiritual enough. I was still chained by guilt and lies even if I wasn't physically in.
What helped me was to get informed. This site has many topics that made me look at things differently. I paced myself because I found out things I didn't know I didn't know. I picked only topics I felt I was ready to explore. There were so many untruths to uncover. I am still working on it.
Once you can intellectually understand the truth about the truth you can start unchaining yourself from the guilt and the fear.
Poke around on this site with an open mind. Don't worry about posting just read the comments. I found as I was reading I would answer with my progammed response. I didn't post it but someone else would. Then the op would tear down that response with reasonable points that I never considered. It made me go hmmm.
So expore and go at your own pace. Ask questions here , listen with an open mind and soon you will be able to taste real freedom.
Best of luck in your journey.
PS. I married non jw and he said the same thing to me about religion. Listen to your husband, he sounds like a smart guy. Are our husbands deserving of death? I think not.
