he k.ows i am not
Hey There all, I just wanted to take a moment to introduce myself and thank you all for this wonderful site and all the helpful discussions Sich a loving arrangement
My name may (or may not) be Tracee. I may (or may not) live in Texas. I do have.3 children ages ranging from college age to junior high. My children do not believe the wt. The adult children are absolutely not having anything to do with it and gingerly asked me one day of i believed what they taught. When I said nope, not at all, the relief was clear.
The youngest does attend kh.This child answerz several questions at all meetings, participates in family study, independently prepares for her own studies...and thinks it is a crazy cult that writes for babies )aka like a childs book) This kid is smart. At the next study she is going to make a big dramatic annoumcement about her college plans which will segway into some questions i have.
So point there...my kids are not in the cult. but my husbamd and majority of hos family members are in. my h was inactive for over a decade. I studied with his aumt cor about a year before I walking away. the cult caused many issues in my relationship woth my now h before as we werent married. So much drama...another thread...but ultimately he faded and married me, the worldly girl. But the wt has haunted our marriage, and led to resentment. It has been difficult.
After some life changing events my h wamted us to all bet back to the kh. we have been back for a year. and this ish is crazy
My husbamd is all in. he jas acknowledged he doesnt believe it all but is a born in...it is all he knows. it has only been tje past few months that he has gotten more into it...telling our child they camt have worldly friends, not wanting to go to dinner woth couples who are not jw, going theu our kids toys and tossing unicorns, smurfs, etc.
he knows how i feel for the most part, knows i am not getting baptised, will not recuse blood fpr self or child, etc. in another thread i mentioned how he told his mom that "the devil is at wprk." so thats what i am dealing woth.
i feel so sad fpr him, for things that happened in his life because of thos relovion...for the way tjey almost broke us up!! years before. for the grip they have on him. je gets zo defensive when i talk about things i have learned. he responds with the canned jw responses i have seen all over. amyways, that is me in a nutshell. i apolkgize for all the typos i am on my phone.