First off, thank you all for the kind comments, tips, and support. This whole experience has been...un-nerving.
As I have been uncovering more TTATT, I have also been uncovering just how much of an impact the JW's had in my relationship with my husband.
To clarify the story further, I became pregnant while my husband and I were dating (he was not active at that time). He lived with me. While I was pregnant, he became active again, and shortly after I had the baby he moved out and basically "ended" the relationship with me officially, yet was still over every day to spend time with us. We went places together, etc. I began studying with one of his family members. I finally became fed up with it all, and I began a relationship with another man - afterall, we were not together, he would not even sit with me at meetings, and was just being...weird. Things blew up. I stopped studying. He faded, and a few years later we did end up back together and married.
At the time it was all happening, as a never been a dub, I had no idea what had been going on. I later found out, after the ish hit the fan, that he had been planning to propose. He never told me, one of his "spiritually weak" family members did. But I still didnt fully understand.
During this past year, I have come to uderstand the dynamic at play, and know what took place now. At it is just effed up! When we first came back I didnt know the details of the religion. Now that I know how crooked and deceitful they are, well, it pisses me off. And he is so blind to it.