Another way to make the meetings a little easier, since you say you're giving lots of comments, is to look for ways to give comments that are superficially supportive of cult doctrine but will cause any thinkers to have a wtf moment.
For example, a while back in book study there was something about how those who read the Bible with a critical heart object to it. A great comment would be something like "some people object to god ordering the death of all men women and children of other nations, but we know that the only reason they object to this slaughter is that they have a critical heart"
You do need to taper off the commenting, though. Start working to get out of the spotlight.