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In 06 I had a heart attac while riding my motorcycle. All I could thing of while in the hospital was "I can't die! What about my family, what about my secrets, what about my sins"
The following year I was DFed for living a double life. I had changed much of my life by then. No longer living a double life, got things is order, thought all was good. However my past was discovered and I was rightly DFed.
My world came crashing in! I lost all that was important to me. I would walk around Wal mart late at night just to get to the morning.
During this time I had a second heart attac. This time few were at my bed side. I thought I was not going to make it. However , this time I did not have the same fear. I did not care if I lived or died.
I recovered, was re-instated and life went on. But not the same.
Everything from the speakers sounded differant. The Brothers and sisters were differant.
I then decided to leave on my own.
Life has never been better. Please hang in there. Do not fear what will come. It will suprise you!