DocHouse - I see you've ignored my second question, well done, so I'd like to put it this way:
Do you believe that the F&DS (GB) is God's channel to mankind?
The fact that you've taken the trouble to join a forum that 'good' JWs regard as 'apostate' suggests to me that you may have doubts.
My advice to you, FWIW, is stick around - everybody's allowed their opinions and beliefs here, and allowed to voice them in a sensible manner.
I hope you sort your situation out
LUHE