why is your life going down hill? apart from worship, we have control of the rest of our time.
what would sitting in a kingdom hall three hours a week, do to make it better other than to have human beings around you?
its like a divorce. being married to the Org all these years then realizing we were misled by our own flawed reasoning,
and by much persuation,
at first you might feel free of the burden, and you are, but then we question ourselves, we doubt we are doing the right thing
guilt sets in, we feel like we let people down, and then we go back to the same trials we left. thus placing ourselves under obligation again.
many times we would rather be captive, knowing what to expect, than to be free and have to think on our own and make choices.
that is genuine maturity, when we can make our own wise choices using good solid information that we have learned.
its never easy. but reading in search of christain freedom, helped a lot.
but now, always having in the back of my mind why there are no other records of all these fabulous things Jesus supposedly did, other than he few bible books
Im on the road to discovering the lack of proof that a jesus ever exsisted so this is my curiosity now. when i have the time.
