Hey guys n gals, sorry its been such a long time since I've posted. Lately I've been very busy balancing between my school work and cult activities.
Since I've been doing pretty well "spiritually"(enough field-circus hours, attending meetings, underlining my literatrash, reading, praying and serving as the mic-master) my Coordinator grabbed me to the side after a meeting and talked to me for twenty minutes straight congratulating me about how good I am doing.
Then he paused for a good five seconds and got all serious.
Then he proceeded to tell me that the young ones in the hall aren't doing too well. He told me that me and my older brother are the pillars of the youth in the congregation.
Now, you might think the young people in my hall are just not really active in the organization(i.e the kids who never get dunked at assemblies, or just hate being witnesses, want to be being normal teenagers). But in reality a number of them are in some really deep s***. Some of them have been involved in some things that are so bad I can't even give details on what they've done on this forum. I'd be running the risk of giving my identity away. Lets just say some of their actions were similar to a that of a man named Jonathan Kendrick.
My congregation has such a bad rap in the circuit its not even funny. My BOE is probably the most looked down upon BOE in the history of jwdom.
If my parents or anyone in the hall knew that I no longer believed the WBTS is god's organization, it would hit like a nuke. They think my brother and I are the only hope for the young people in my age group. I feel like there is this unnecessary pressure thrown on my me, its so freaking annoying.