I am the only JW in my family, and df'd. My 3 children were baptised, and are very good people, they left after my sons were molested by an elder. My siblings (7) and I were raised as JWs, none got baptised, all left and did other things with their lives. I've been going to meetings for 61 years.. I talk to my kids, and family as none are Witnesses so that's great. But, I have no friends, don't know how to make friends. I don't trust anyone. I always feel this sharp pain of sadness. I believed everyone felt like me, when I was active. I was so happy, had wonderful friends, did good deeds, studied alot. But when the elder drugged and molested my kids and raped another boy in our Hall, I found out I didn't have any friends...and my poor kids, never got any sympathy or understanding. My oldest son has had drug and alcohol problems ever since. Since then, 17yrs has gone by and in that time, I have seen more evil at the KH than I can believe, in elders' meetings....and shepherding visits. It still shocks me. Now when I go to a meeting, or listen on the phone, I don't believe anyone. AM I screwed up? Yes. But I have happiness too. My husband is very supportive, I married him after I was df'd, only knew him for a month, but he was someone who I could talk to. ANd he is still the only person I can talk to and who understands me. I lost everything back then and so did my kids, and I am 63 yrs old now. I am happy, I am going to school, studying Arabic and Spanish, I love my flower garden, my husband and I do a bit of traveling. Two elders were here a couple of weeks ago. They started to open their bibles... I told them to close the bible and don't say a word out of it, and that I was sick of them telling me I am a sh*** person because I am df'd. AND that I wouldn't allow them to talk about Jehovah, as he had nothing to do with any of this. I was upset and I scared them, because they knew I was ready to start swinging my fists. I had had enough. Enough of their torture. When does it end? and yes, I did see a psychiatrist for 9 years after I was df'd.
AlwaysBusy
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How Have You Been Affected By Having Been A Jehovah's Witness?
by minimus inis your life over?
are you totally screwed up?
are you able to move on?
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Reinstatement via Old Cong.
by startingover13 ini've applied to be reinstatement in a new city after attending meetings for a bit.
i wrote my letter and they heard my case.
they were very helpful.
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Aunt Fancy ~ Thank you!
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Autumn...
by new hope and happiness ini've just glanced out my window and i saw the most picturesque countryside.
i do believe we're entering autumn.
so summer has had its day and like an old friend slipped away and we moves on...how do you feel about entering autumn?.
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I love autumn, the cooler days, the beautiful colors. But it also makes me sad, a little. I love summer, I love flowers and birds and bright, beautiful colors in my flower garden. Autumn is a reminder that winter and gray colors are just around the corner. Thankfully I live in the Southern USA so the winters are short.
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Reinstatement via Old Cong.
by startingover13 ini've applied to be reinstatement in a new city after attending meetings for a bit.
i wrote my letter and they heard my case.
they were very helpful.
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Obliette ~ Thank you for posting the information on reinstatement. I wonder, as in my case, if the elders on my df'ing committee are still alive/active/apostate/df'd. I have since moved to a different state and have requested reinstatement about 10 times since I was df'd 17 years ago. My request goes no where because my husband always asks the elders I meet with if they are going to do anything about the pedophile that molested my sons. That pedophile is still an elder, by the way. Soooooooooooo, in other words, I guess I will have to wait a little bit longer. Sooooooo, StartingOver, don't be upset, I'm sure you won't have to wait as long as I have.
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The CO's are liars
by HowTheBibleWasCreated intoday i visited another hall because my wife wanted to see some friend in this hall.. all was fine.
it was a 1pm meetting which was nice.... but.. it was co visit... ggrr.. that means boths talks i need to hear again in 2 weeks... the first one was unimpressive.... the second was sick!.
he said that we needed to imagine the new world... he said he wanted 11 children in the new world.... wait a minute...1 billion years + and only 11 children.. excuse me..coward!
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There won't be any internet during the Great Tribulation.....there won't be anything....except a lot of pain for a lot of people.
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How Often Do You Come To JWN? How Often Do You Post?
by minimus indo you check this site, daily?.
do you post very much?.
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I'm new here.... only posted once...commented a couple of times. Basically I am interested if if anyone has any new information or even old info about the WTBTS.
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What Happened to the Religion I Left in 1995?
by JoshJeffries injosh here, new to the board.
glad to know this site is here.. i would not be writing this if it were not 2014. i was a ministerial servant and regular pioneer who left the jehovahs witnesses back in 1995/96, around that time.
i left suddenly, didnt fade away, just left when something clicked one day in my head during the morning shower and made me realize this religion wasnt true.
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What happened to the religion I was born into during the 50's?
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Did You Ever Communicate With Disfellowshipped Persons?
by minimus inwe were supposed to treat them as dead!
did you follow this direction?
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Yes, I talk to myself all of the time.
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Thanks BLONDIE !!!
by Zoos inwhenever i need to find a watchtower quote in a hurry i hop over to jwn real quick and do a topic search knowing blondie will have posted exactly what i'm looking for.. .
thanks for your diligence, .
it really helps!.
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Thank you, Blondie! I don't know who you are, but I am grateful you are so knowledegable and helpful!
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School for Congregation Elders
by C.O.B.E.Beef ini attended the school late last year, and it was an emotional and mental rollercoaster for me.
i was already divided in my heart to say the least.
one of the instructors stayed in my home for the week, and my family genuinely enjoyed his company.
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Wow... I just saw this. I think one thing is overlooked by most of the Uppity-Ups higher up on this list than us lowly publishers. Some of us (publishers) aren't as stupid as everyone thinks. And some of us bypass all the 'elite' and go straight to Jehovah through Jesus. Not all of us are uneducated, easily frightened and easily bullied. What a bunch of arrogant...