I cried like a baby whenever a relative, or friend died, in or out. When my mom died, Witnesses said, 'you'll see her again'. Didn't help, I think I cried on and off for a year...and I still feel badly. I'd like to see her now. My step-daughter died this week, I cried and I never met her. I saw pics of her though. She was beautiful, but not when she died, she had cancer, it ate her up right to the bone, I saw pics of her at the end. I cry when my pets die. The older I get, the more people die...and it's kind of hard to lose them because there isn't anyone to fill in the gaps so one has to learn to live without those we lose.
There was a talk today, I've never heard one like this in the 60 years I've been going to meetings. The speaker was talking about the resurrection. He said, to the audience, not the resurrection of our loved ones, but 'your' resurrection. He said he had thought he would survive into the new system, but is starting to realize, because he is getting old, that he will probably die before it gets here. So the gist of the talk was to have faith in the resurrection promise because we may end up dying in this system. He said to keep in the forefront of your mind, the resurrection hope, for ourselves. It was just kind of creepy.
Anyway, take care.