>In fact, my situation is a repeat of the abuse this cult is consistently known for. Yes, it's funny how people really don't realize this. It's been very hard for me to try and discern how much of her behavior is from the JW's, and how much is because she's just a little bit unhinged. When I was a teenager, I just thought my parents were "awful". Now I realize how much the religion added to the crazy.
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36I told my mother to stop contacting me
by kyria inafter two months of terribly abusive emails from my mother telling me that i "am not capable of appreciating true love" and her weird delusions that i have no friends and my life is a mess, i finally cut her off.
i blocked her email address, and i told her to stop contacting me.
yes, the jehovah?s witnesses.
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I told my mother to stop contacting me
by kyria inafter two months of terribly abusive emails from my mother telling me that i "am not capable of appreciating true love" and her weird delusions that i have no friends and my life is a mess, i finally cut her off.
i blocked her email address, and i told her to stop contacting me.
yes, the jehovah?s witnesses.
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kyria
>And you have made some new "outside" friends that are helping you move on.
Thank you. My friends are some pretty amazing people! It's funny that my mother chose to harp on that. She always put the words friends in quotation marks! How funny is that? Like, "Where are you "friends" tonight?" Heh. .
>Don't let the past haunt you.
Thank you. Now that I am past the initial shocks, this is my newest goal. And little witch... thank you for your encouraging words also. I did want to make it clear to my mother that I love her and I don't want to hurt her. Especially that mother-daughter relationship, which of course was so very special when I was a little girl and is so hard to walk away from. I guess I really don't feel like this is permanent. Either that or I'm completely in emotional denial right now :)
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Collected stories about my JW upbringing...
by kyria inhello.. i am working on a series of stories about my jw upbringing which i intend to perform as a one-person show in the near future.. i am in the process of putting them up online, and thought they might be of interest to some people here.
(keep in mind that they are still a bit rough!).
they can be found here:.
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kyria
Thank you :)
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I told my mother to stop contacting me
by kyria inafter two months of terribly abusive emails from my mother telling me that i "am not capable of appreciating true love" and her weird delusions that i have no friends and my life is a mess, i finally cut her off.
i blocked her email address, and i told her to stop contacting me.
yes, the jehovah?s witnesses.
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kyria
Thank you. I guess a big part of this is realizing that my mother really is mentally unstable.
My brother cut her out of his life a long time ago, which I think was a big reason I hung on to her for so long. I had so much guilt at being her "only child". Unfortunately, she used my good graces until there was nothing left to give.
She had already told me that she could no longer speak to me because I was an apostate, so I suppose I'm just doing what the elders told her to do anyway.
My sincere hope is that she seeks psychiatric treatment, but I doubt the JW's will allow that.
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I told my mother to stop contacting me
by kyria inafter two months of terribly abusive emails from my mother telling me that i "am not capable of appreciating true love" and her weird delusions that i have no friends and my life is a mess, i finally cut her off.
i blocked her email address, and i told her to stop contacting me.
yes, the jehovah?s witnesses.
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kyria
For me it is sad mainly on one level: the fact that I have been left no choice but to cut my own mother out of my life.
I also hope that we can reconcile in the future. Thank you.
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I told my mother to stop contacting me
by kyria inafter two months of terribly abusive emails from my mother telling me that i "am not capable of appreciating true love" and her weird delusions that i have no friends and my life is a mess, i finally cut her off.
i blocked her email address, and i told her to stop contacting me.
yes, the jehovah?s witnesses.
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kyria
After two months of terribly abusive emails from my mother telling me that I "am not capable of appreciating true love" and her weird delusions that I have no friends and my life is a mess, I finally cut her off. I blocked her email address, and I told her to stop contacting me. At least for now.
It feels like a giant weight has been taken off of my shoulders. I've finally moved on. I can't believe what a tremendously long process leaving the Witnesses has been. I'm 8 years gone now, and it still haunts me.
Here is the letter that I sent to her. Perhaps it will help some people here who are in a similar situation.
In retrospect, I suppose I could have softened the letter, but my mother is incapable of understanding anything I say anyway, so it honestly doesn't matter. She simply refuses to acknowledge anything I tell her. This letter was for closure on my part, not for her benefit.
(note that the first line is simply something that she said to me in her last email, which I chose to respond to...)
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>YOU chose to leave DJ and move to NY. Are you any better off for YOUR CHOICE??
Yes, I am.
Please seek psychiatric treatment, you are completely delusional. Write back to me when you make sense. I cannot converse with someone who chooses to ignore facts in favor of some bizarre fantasy concocted only to make me feel like a failure.
You are in a cult. That?s all I will say, that?s all I?m ever going to say because I know you cannot understand it. I know you probably never will.
Please, please, please go talk to a therapist! Try to figure out what the reasons could *possibly* be that neither of your children want to talk to you.
I am sorry if you are hurting, I never meant to hurt you. I just cannot put myself in an unhealthy situation. This is the way it has to be right now. I cannot be subjected to your insane religious rhetoric any more. That part of my life is over. I worked long and hard to overcome it. I was able to be close to you when you weren?t pushing the religion down my throat. Unfortunately you have made it clear that time is over.
If you can?t figure out why I ?speak badly of Jehovah?s Witnesses?, then I can only say that I feel sorry for you.
I love you, but I have to take care of myself. I have to be healthy. You are not healthy, and I can?t be around that right now.
You need to stop blaming me and take responsibility for your actions. You sent me an entire email telling me that every thing that?s happened in my life was my fault. What was the purpose of that?
If we want to capitalize the word ?your?, let?s do it this way: this situation is YOUR choice and yours alone. YOU chose to go back to the Jehovah?s Witnesses. YOU chose to send me terrible, mean email after New Years saying things like I ?have no friends? and ?don?t appreciate true love.? What terrible, terrible things to say to someone, especially since they are not true. This is why I am no longer speaking to you. *I* chose not to respond to such negativity.
I am giving you the courtesy of this reply, even though I know that you will twist it around to mean whatever you want it to mean. You have proven time and time again that you are not capable of understanding what I say to you. It?s all in one ear and out the other.
So here is something for you to forget in an hour: The truth is that I am fine. The truth is that I made the right decision by leaving DJ. The truth is that I am healthier now than I have ever been in my life.
I am trying very, very hard to become the kind of person that the Jehovah?s Witnesses squashed in me. Yes, the Jehovah?s Witnesses. Why do I talk about them as if they ruined my life? BECAUSE THEY DID!! It was an absolutely horrible way to grow up, and neither Noah or I will ever fully recover from it. All I can do is try to make sense of my life now and try to live like a normal, healthy person. I am incredibly, incredibly strong and I have amazing friends who have helped me through some of the worst periods of my life. Friends who were there for me when your Jehovah?s Witnesses SHUNNED me and refused to even speak to me. How loving, right? Let me tell you something about Christian behavior ? shunning a young girl is NOT CHRISTIAN. You are not Christian. You are just a cult member.
Once again, leave me alone.
Love always,
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Collected stories about my JW upbringing...
by kyria inhello.. i am working on a series of stories about my jw upbringing which i intend to perform as a one-person show in the near future.. i am in the process of putting them up online, and thought they might be of interest to some people here.
(keep in mind that they are still a bit rough!).
they can be found here:.
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kyria
Hello.
I am working on a series of stories about my JW upbringing which I intend to perform as a one-person show in the near future.
I am in the process of putting them up online, and thought they might be of interest to some people here. (Keep in mind that they are still a bit rough!)
They can be found here:
http://mysite.verizon.net/vze6shsy/
I hope that you enjoy them!
- Kyria
kyriaoei at hotmail
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Uncool Photos only......starting with Cassie LOL.
by Lainey inyeah i know cassie likes to think he is so cool, he only puts up the good piccies on his av, hoping the jwd girlies will fancy him.
anyone can look good when a professional takes a photo ..cassie!!
so i thought i would share a more realistic pic taken at a wedding 3 years ago .
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kyria
Here's a picture of me and my mom posing for the dorkland hat parade.
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WATCHTOWER WORDS
by minimus init is true that jehovah's witnesses have their own language.
an "outsider" might not have a clue to what certain words might mean.
for example, "the truth"-----if a person heard that expression, they would never have connected it to only the jw religion.....can you think of language that is exclusive to "watchtower" world??
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kyria
I nonchalantly used the word "pioneer" to a friend of mine who burst out laughing. She said all she could picture was Witnesses in covered wagons.
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Tonight Matthew I am going to be.....................................
by Lainey inif you had to go on stars in their eyes.. who would you choose and why?.
i think i would stick a blonde wig on and sing blondie's heart of glass.
as mine gets broken a lot.
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kyria
I could go on as Michael Jackson singing Thriller, but before the performance I would have to have a little disclaimer that said I was in no way involved in the occult.