Not so much jelousy as frustration. It's the reason I woke up. I was encouraged by the elders to hop on the "reach out" hamster wheel, meanwhile the bible studies and relative of the elders were on a moving walkway sipping coffee and chatting. In fact studies of elders were baptized and appointed after I got on the wheel. I couldn't get a strait answer as to what was the hold up. I lost it and tore one of the elders a new one, that pretty well sealed my fate. I hung on for a while, and then just faded. No one calls, the few friends I had, recently pulled out the shun gun (that's when my wife said "I'm never going back"). The elders come by once in a while usually during the CO visit. The lack of love, and no indication of holy spirit is glaring. I have children, grand children, and a loving wife to spend time with. No more "kindergarden theology" meetings, wasting my time, and gas driving around on Sat. morning. I'm much less frustrated, much happier. If I was still going I would be on anti-depressants by now. Next time I see one of the elders that held back my appointment I am going to look him in the eye, shake his hand, and sincerly say "Thank You !!!"
Please consider this my introduction.