Sorry you are feeling down. We all get that way sometimes.
Just try and focus on the few good/true and unconditional friends you have. Maybe you could try and call one of those great friends and see if they want to meet up for a quick lunch or cup of coffee. Maybe that would help.
Keep in mind that all the JW friends had conditions. Unfortunately, that is not a friend.
Hang in there and know that you have ones who care and understand what you are going through.