"I am happier than I ever was whilst being an "uber dub"
Welcome! We are happier out than we ever were in. My spouse and I are born ins and faded 4 years ago. We have been told our life will now fail because we left the org. Not so, freedom is fantastic.
We don't know what to believe anymore either. It's tough to realize everything you have been taught is not true.
This forum has been a great help to us. We hope it will be for you as well.
Move slow. You will be surprised where you may be mentally in a year or two. We are in a totally different place than were we were 4 years ago.