ttt
still fishin'
about a year ago i contacted the u.s. justice department regarding the custody brochure and the wt's blatant disregard for the law regarding perjury.
they were very interested.
i have spent this time compiling information to present to them.
ttt
still fishin'
several years ago when i first started looking at tinternet i was still reticent to look at anything that may be taken as 'apostate'.
so typing in 'jehovahs witnesses' was not for me just yet.
however one little belief of theirs had always troubled me.
I got on the internet to look for a KM. I bumped into H20 and started reading. I told myself that if I REALLY had the truth, it could stand up to the apostates and their "faulty" reasoning. Never made it to that meeting.
http://oregonlive.com/news/oregonian/index.ssf?/xml/story.ssf/html_standard.xsl?/base/front_page/101671540232151251.xml.
shunning in spotlight .
wendy y. lawton .
So sad..doesn't seem like 5 years.
sorry, i'm sooo bored at the moment...so i thought it was a good idea to post something that would take up 5 minutes!.
i have a collection of books.
robin cook, patricia cornwell, john grisham, dean koontz, richard laymon and stephen king are among my favourites.
muscle cars, glass with bubbles, copper (I have to touch it), shells, candles, quotations, friends, memories....
and the swallowing blackness .
from which i drag my soul .
is now clutching for my children .
From a child's view...life without a parent: http://www.haveyouseenmymother.com/
Brian's father physically kidnapped him and robbed him of his mother, there are countless ones who have had their children emotionally kidnapped and spiritually raped while we are shunned and forced to stand by. Robbing a child is among the lowest forms of depravity.
"By their fruits you will know them"
and the swallowing blackness .
from which i drag my soul .
is now clutching for my children .
For any lurkers...this is to clarify exactly what it's like after you leave the cult:
I am not allowed to go to parent teacher conferences with my children.
I am not allowed to discuss classes that are available to them or give them advice on a career.
I am not allowed to drop them off to sleep overs or contact persons holding them.I cannot phone to say goodnite.
I am not allowed to HOLD sleepovers for their friends as they must all shun me.
I am not allowed to attend parties the girls do or help them throw them with other parents.
I will not be allowed to attend their graduations.
I am shunned at school performances to the point my daughter cries and is torn from my arms.
I will not be allowed to attend their weddings.
They are not allowed to attend my wedding.
They would not be allowed to attend my funeral, should I die.
They cannot take part in family dinners if I pray over them.
They cannot attend any church with me and have written suicide notes due to an invitation to another Christian church.
I am not allowed to make medical decisions for them even though I have joint legal custody and liberal visitation.
I am told by them that my judgment is impaired and I cannot give parental advice.
They are required to read literature that calls me a worker of Satan.
I am not allowed to introduce them to any non-JW family I have recently found.
I am not allowed to take them on "meeting" days although I have been given liberal visitation.
They are told I am in an adulterous marriage and my children are its product.
They are told when they are 18 they will be told of my sins which are unmentionable to them at their young age now.
They are put in contact with my father, an admitted child molester against court order with permission of their religion.As a young girl, I was raped hundreds of times over 8 years by this man, yet from then until now, he is a WT member in good standing.I was told by my own JW mother that what he did was not rape at all:I was ?old enough to consent.?I was 12 years old when it started.
They are put in contact with persons who shun me and who counteract my rights as a parent.
I have no criminal record.
I have 2 other children through marriage.
I am the Human Rights Director for an educational organization designed to help abused children.
I am the state representative for an organization against abuse of children.
I am listed as a safe house for abused children.
I am trained as a foster parent.
I received the Courage Award from another organization against child molestation.
Yet I am viewed as a danger to my own children by their teachings.
Our lives suffer and my children are robbed of a loving parent, something many children don't even have.
and the swallowing blackness .
from which i drag my soul .
is now clutching for my children .
Thankyou... my life goes on but part of it is forever tied to them and I will never give up. We have all lost something...time, education, children, grandchildren, parents, parts of ourselves. Taking a stand for what we have found costs us. But we are stronger for it. I have two children who are cult-free!
and the swallowing blackness .
from which i drag my soul .
is now clutching for my children .
I have three daughters lost in the cult. I went through a 6 year custody court battle and the JW's (congregation, my own family, and my ex) threatened the kids with death at Armageddon and bribed them with ponies in the new system. Part of the hearings are on YOUTUBE where an elder lies about shunning and the custody brochure.
They still have contact with me but are paying the price via marking, etc. for having an apostate mom. Living without your children is a sort of walking death you must do to be their only chance out. The court condemned the practice of shunning and blasted the judgementalism that damaged my kids...then gave them custody.
i now have a life beyond jehovah's witnesses.
i am able to impact kids in their development into young adults who have risen above challenging circumstances.
these children are always impoverished but may be challenged in other ways, as well.. my job is to mold them into productive citizens, contributing adults.
Good for you! Do you realize what wonderful people we are with here? I consider it an honor to know many here. And Auldsoul is the cream of the crop with a heart much too large for one person.
"You are dead" they proclaim
But only now do we breath
Only now do our eyes open
and we wince at the light which embraces us
and we find a world of color
and we feel pain and joy that has been numbed away by their words
But it is here
and we are here
and we a born to a new life in the light beyond the dark
and we cannot return
to the death you live.
(edited to add the poem)
and the swallowing blackness .
from which i drag my soul .
is now clutching for my children .
And the swallowing blackness
from which I drag my soul
is now clutching for my children
and I see them disappear
and I see their faces
the faces they hide behind as they knock on the doors,
and memorize those words.
Good news of terror and death and hate.
And I dare not lose their stares as they sink
for it is the last hold
And if blink, they will be gone
and they will forget I exist
and who they are.
So I look in those faces
and open my heart to send the love they felt
when they lived under my heart.
and hope they never forget .