.
"life has lost its meaning to me ".
"iam fed up" ...."life is the same old stuff"
Paradise,
There was a time when I finally fell to the floor in total despair. I laid there for 4 hrs and sobbed. I thought I would rather never get up, but just die there. But Blondie is right. Do those things and you will be pleasantly surprised. After years in the darkness of unhappiness, I can finally look around and see beauty again! And you will too....just hang in there.
in the october 15 watchtower (the one dmouse used the cover of for his competition...) there is an article on how to make decisions.
this picture was part of it:.
note the image on the right.
Shamus....you are too funny!!!!!!!!! I love it!
in short, respect, honesty and truth.
perfection?
i personally sense some persons expect and demand toooo much from others on forums of this nature.
sns...you and I have a lot in common. I feel the same way. I want to treat others well and hope that they will treat me well. And after all the judgemental attitudes in the JWs, I never want to be judgemental and hope others will not be judgemental with me. As for being forgiving, I too, am probably too forgiving. But then, I spent the first 1/2 of my life constantly saying "I'm sorry" for everything... even if I didn't do anything wrong!
experience over the weekend.
just to clarify..... sad is the societys official acronym for special assembly day.
i attended yesterday at the brooklyn assembly hall with approximately 1,800 others.
Franklin, you are so right...I saw the hypocracy first hand. When I was at bethel, since I had no formal training (and believe me, they asked about that), I got to work in factory cleaning. However, my brother, who was somewhat of an electrician and extremely smart, was sent at the society's expense to school. He is now an Electrical Engineer. I guess they don't mind schooling if it works for them. But God forbid the r&f should go to school!
well, actually, i did, but with the blessings of the family.
it's fake (too many allergies in the house to risk a real one), pre-lit, and 7 feet tall.
i think it's going to be gorgeous.
I just love Christmas too. I remember as a kid, when the parents told me we would not celebrate anymore, I cried my eyes out. (I should have known then not to get involved!) About 4 years ago, I got my first tree as an adult. OMG it was so fun. But the funny part was, I still had that "I hope no one sees me" feeling. Isn't that weird? But I got over it fast! I am positively gleeful about Christmas now!
sorry if this is a sad question, but i know of 3 jw's that have suicided.
i haven't known any personally, but i was wondered if you know any or know of any jw's that have suiced?
and do you know the reason why?
Yes, I knew someone. He was a brother with wife and 2 kids. Used to help with quickbuilds, very prominent family in the cong. Ran his own business and hired many other bros to work for him. No one knew anything about him being depressed or anything... One day, he left for work, went to a hotel, parked in the parking lot and took a shot gun and put it in his mouth. He left his wife a note about how he could not take it anymore. What "it" was, no one seems to know...or at least is telling. Very sad.
i'm considered to be very laid back but today i could have easily knocked someone on the nose for nearly causing a car accident that could have injured quite a few people, i wanted to hit the roof, perhaps its my first experience with road rage.
(or maybe the meds were wearing off...lol).. do you get it or have you been a victim?.
see ya next week, take care, oh and dont pap the horn if you see me on the road :).
Not usually, but at a certain stressful time in my life...I had very low tolerance. I had someone cut me off (very close call) and I was so overwhelmed with the urge to just ram his deluxe model car when he stopped at the next light that I got totally dizzy. I guess that means my blood pressure shot up, huh?
please keep mulan, bigred and princess in your thoughts.
her mother was taken via ambulance to the hospital this morning.
paramedics spoke of possible stroke/ aneurism.
{{{{{Mulan and family}}}}}
Hang in there....I am so glad you were home when this happened!
Warm fuzzies to you all, especially your Mom!
recently,two posters,happy out and tyydyy posted topics that mirrored my exact recent experiences.. happy out's car crash was my experience this past thursday morning.i was hit by two tractor trailers on the njtpk.the airbag did not deploy enabling me to steer clear of on -coming traffic as i was spun around.
they made lane changes and fish-tailed swiping me from one lane to the next,it had been raining and the roadway surface was slick.. i ended up facing sideways,drivers side facing on-coming traffic at 60 mph and higher,front end into the wall divider.i quickly reversed myself and moved to the far right lane shoulder,thankful that the car was able to move after the front end hit the wall.the state troopers said this happens a lot and the trailers don't even realize that they side-wiped someone.they were long gone,no injuries to anyone else,no other collisions invovled.i walk away with out a scratch,front end damage to the car will be repaired,i was shaken up to say the least and thought this was it for me.. this was exactly one week after my brother died at the same time of morning,9:20 am.coincidence??
?i mentioned this to happy out in his post.. then,tyydyy posts that he finds his brother after 22 years.this two was my experience as i told him in his post.one of my sisters found me this past week, after twenty-something years which lead to finding four of my six sisters,still looking for the other two.coincidences???.
Glad you are okay Blueblades....I am in NY...been on the NJ Tpk quite a few times....scary!
i am seeing something interesting going on the board here.
if a poster, especially, a new one says something considered unpopular around here, and another poster refutes or disagrees, some people suggest that we're not being kind or welcoming to new ones or to those that have a differing view.
i don't think that this is what we're collectively trying to tell a person that doesn't share the majority viewpoint.
When I came here, I actually respected all those opinionated people! When I left the witnesses, I didn't know what I believed, or even how I felt--I was just a lost soul. But, after seeing all these people with opinions(sometimes really strong opinions), I realized that there was hope for me, that I would eventually sort all the crap out and finally have an opinion (...and get a life??? ha ha). It is really nice to finally have left the JW fog I was in and actually think for myself! And, I did still feel welcome.
