Andi:
That was the most touching post I've ever ready. My eyes are full of tears right now! I'm sorry that you've been in so much pain lately dealing with the loss of your family. It's extremely painful to have your own mother and father treat you like a stranger. And it is definitely OK to grieve over it and feel down for awhile. If you didn't you could never really heal from the experience.
It sounds to me that all of the turmoil in your life hasn't affected your good attitude at all. Despite the agony you feel, your heart is still so full of love and appreciation for what you have. I'm very happy this difficult time in your life didn't affect your holiday.
AMarie