Posts by Puternut

come on, tell us a random fact or two about you that bears no relevance to anything else.. i am getting repetative strain injury from holding a mouse.. i've also always wanted to go on "who wants to be a millionare" and say "i'll take the money" after the first 100 and walking out.. .

Puternut

I have always wanted to taste what I hear and to smell what I see.....

Or hear what I smell and and wonder why my brain itches sometimes......

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My Dad died a few hours ago

by BONEZZ in

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excuse me if i ramble...this is hard.

i have even avoided threads in the past where others have had to go thru this because i didn't want to face it.

guess i'm a wuss.

Puternut

Bonezz,

I am trully sorry to hear about your loss. It is a difficult time. My condolences to you.

I lost my father a year and a half ago. He was df'd for 18 years, and by the borg standards I was to have 'limited' contact with him.What a waist of time. Shortly before he died, he had an anurism. He was reinstated with 2 months. When he came back, he was a vegetable. I never had a close relationship with him for all these years. I now regret, and have feelings of guilt for having listened to the borg.

Be good to your family. No matter what their status is. We need family, it's part of God's arrangement. Unconditional love, is something the borg will never learn.

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Emotional Day

by Puternut in

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i am having one of those days.

it all started yesterday when i was picking up some work from a client yesterday nearby.

when i walked in the store, the nora jones cd was playing and i became emotional.

Puternut

Rabbit,

It almost sounds like you were married to the same person. The expression " I don't answer to you anymore", are the exact words my X also uses.

I don't see how JW's can behave like that. Even Jesus treated his enemies with a degree of dignity. And when I was in the borg, I never treated df'd people like they were dirty, or dead. It seems like they have their own version of punishment. I can understand being df'd as a form of discipline, or adherance to their structure. All organizations have rules. But to go beyond that is not acceptable. To many df'ing is not good enough. They want you suffering more, if not more so, DEAD!

I was picking up a bottle of Vodka from the store yesterday, and ran into an JW from my congregation. I saw her, but felt I wasn't going to give her the time of day. But her eyes were glued on me. Fire was burning in my neck, and wishes of pain and death were telepathically transmitted. Then finally when I reached the cash register, she made sure she gave me the look of Satan, and made sure she expressed her looks of disgust and filth for me. I gave her a look of 'whatever' and left it with that.

I think many are going beyond the written word. And take matters in their own hand. Even Jesus talked to the Pharasees. Not that he agreed with them, but treated them with a measure of respect. After all we still live on this earth and God has put us here. He disciplines those whom he loves, and still cares for them. If they are trully JW's they need to learn from that.

Puternut

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JUST READ CRISIS OF CONSCIENCE

by marie67 in

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i'm new to this forum.

actually i've been a lurker for awhile.

posted on sassy's call to the newbies.

Puternut

Marie,

You are braver than me. I have not read the book or any books as of this date. I have been badly scared by the WT and now don't trust to read any other material. I have been washed once and fear this will do the same for me. I can't say I will never read it, but I am just now recovering from my fall. I am just getting up. I don't want to fall again or be brain washed by other material at this time.

From what I understand it's pretty intense reading. I am delicate and fragile at this point in my life. I feel vulnerable at times, and so I have my shields up. I am very guarded regarding any material that is related to faiths, beliefs or opinions.

You are to be commended for having done so.

Puternut

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Introductions

by CeriseRose in

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well not 'new', as i'm over 30. heh but i'm newly out (letter of disassociation dropped off at kh end of january, and i was announced last thursday night).

i posted my 'story' on a different ex-jw board, and as it is so long, i'm not reprinting it.

hehe even with cut and paste it's icky.

Puternut

Welcome Cerise,

Hope you enjoy your stay here,

Puternut

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Emotional Day

by Puternut in

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i am having one of those days.

it all started yesterday when i was picking up some work from a client yesterday nearby.

when i walked in the store, the nora jones cd was playing and i became emotional.

Puternut

Thanks bikerchic,

I am needing to remember that they are hurting as well from their side. I know they must be torn into as well. Having to listen to the elders and the borg, and yet knowing all the things we went through together in life. I am sure they miss that as well as I do. We were very close. I stayed up many nights with them playing video games and eating popcorn. Those are memories no one can take away.

I will continue to write them. I pray the elders aren't telling them they cannot write back. Both my girls live with my ex, and she is very controlling. That is her nature. All calls are screened, intercepted, or ignored. Sometimes I have to call for two weeks straight, before I get an answer from the house. I hope there is never an emergency again.

Last time my daughter was in the hospital, and I found out about that from someone else, who was kind enough to give me a tip. When I arrived, my wife practically barred me from the emergency room. I was df'd and was not to see my child. She is out of her mind!!! This is my child who is laying in the emergency room. I told her to stand aside, or I will .......

My ex, blamed her condition on me. Claiming it was emotional stress.

She was have her appendix out.

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