Intel,
I started missing meetings & questioning the brothers, The Truth's changing doctrines, while I was married to my JW, she cleverly (I think she had help) figured out my problem...I had to have a demon. It must have just been obvious, ya' know?
Well, fast forward a few years, we were divorced. Kids minds were poisoned and that hasn't recovered yet. Please...be very, very careful...absolutely demand your rights! You've done what you felt was the best, the best way for your situation. Moshe is still spouting his same old tired "doormat" doctrine...not even apparently aware that people come in all shapes and sizes. One size does not fit all.
I am a proud fader. My decision has enabled me to have some contact with one daughter, sisters, cousins, aunts & uncles... I don't know if I'll ever cause them to doubt what they've been taught -- and get out themselves, but, I have had some access. I've also had painful shunning. And, I have never had the inevitable "showdown" with the elders.
Good Luck