Welcome Sneaky Russian!
Please come back and visit the board. We would love to keep hearing from you! And I was wondering also about that thing hanging on Nosferatu's head. Don't you find it quite........strange?
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Zdravstvuite
by Sneaky Russian inhello my american friends, and those from other places
i was a witness for almost 20 years, and have been through a lot to offer my story today.
my mother was conned by the jehovah's witnesses when she was just forteen years old after sitting in with a schoolfriend on a bible study back in england.
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I was a good kid because I was raised by Bible Principles
by Nosferatu insometimes when i go visit my mother, she mentions that i was a good kid because i was raised by bible principles.
i was crying for absolutely no reason at all.
around 11:30, i felt completely ill. i went up to my teacher and told him i was going to see the nurse.
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Strawberryfieldsforever
Nosferatu! I'm so sorry for what you had to go through.....
I went through almost the same thing as you.....I was always the new kid because my Dad was in the military. We moved alot. I was so afraid of going in the new school because the first thing I had to endure was the flag salute. Then I was the new kid on top of that. I was always sick with stomach pains. I would lay in the nurses office and cry and cry. I wasn't even happy about my mother comming to get me. I just wanted to disappear. I invented this imaginary friend. He would talk to me and tell me it was OK and don't cry. I started to depend on this imaginary friend and withdraw from people. Even my mother. I would have these silent conversations with him in my head. Healthy? I don't know, but it helped me through some bad times. I also had bad times in music. I loved music! But at Christmas time I had to sit off to the side and watch the others sing. In my school days they had the projector that put the words up on the screen for everyone to see. It was dark in the room I'm so glad it was dark cause it gave me the opportunity to cry. I couldn't join choir for the Christmas concerts or any of the others. I was an outcast....except for my imaginary friend. Valentines day was really bad for me. I would watch everyone open their homemade boxes and laugh and kid eachother. They even got gum and candy. Sometimes the kids felt sorry for me and gave me cards with candy. I felt guilty eating them cause I knew it was wrong to take part. I ate it anyway and felt terrible and would cry when I got home....and then there was the birthday celebrations in school. I could never eat the treats the other kids brought from home. I had to go and sit somewhere else and draw pictures. Even drawing pictures was hard at holidays. I couldn't draw anything in art like the others. The teacher always had a visit from my mom so she knew what I could and couldn't draw. It never fit in with the other drawings when they were hung up in the hallway.
As I got older, I couldn't join anything. I was quite good at chess. I even beat the chess teacher! But I couldn't join chess or track or basketball or anything. I had to wear dresses that came to my knees when everyone was wearing mini skirts (70's) and was so embarrased. I used to love to wear skirts to school because I could roll them up on the bus ride to school, so at least they were a little shorter and didn't draw so much attention. I had to remember tho to unroll them on the ride home. I was so withdrawn from everyone that I didn't get into any trouble. Like you said, our parents think they did good by the way they raised us. Yes and No. I didn't do drugs or have sex or run around with the bad crowd, but I was emotionally unstable and withdrawn and very unhappy. I was so envious of the other kids cause their parents let them join clubs and choir and such. I was so left out. But I still had my imaginary friend. Even in high school. He would always tell me it was OK. Don't cry.
Now when I look back, I think the religion kept me out of trouble, but didn't give me the tools I needed in adult life. I am still a big loner. It's hard to make friends. But slowly things are getting a little better. I feel sorry for all the children who are witnesses. I've endured what they are going through. My heart breaks for them. Some are stronger than others. Some won't make it and have baggage to deal with for their whole lives. So Nosferatu, hang in there. I can't say your feelings will go away someday. Mine are still here, and I don't know if they'll ever leave me. School was the hardest part of my life. Thanks for listening....
Strawberryfieldsforever
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The biggest LIE you believed as a JW...
by Waymores Ghost infor me it was the belief that all people who refuse to become jws are intrinsically bad.
if someone doesn't accept the "truth", naturally it's because "satan-the-devil" has hardened their hearts.
when you're a dub, you tend to ignore the ramifications of this.
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Strawberryfieldsforever
Millions now living will never die
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Were You Ever "Marked" or Shunned?
by minimus inhow many here either were "marked" or "shunned" in some way?
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Strawberryfieldsforever
As soon as we started to fade away and start missing meetings, I noticed a big difference in the friends at the hall. They would keep a distance at the grocery store or wherever we would see them. Some would just nod when we said hello. I think they were trying to show us that we were bad association.
The funny thing now is: I consider them the worst association ever. I avoid them now at the grocery store or wherever.
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How has this board changed over the years?
by Strawberryfieldsforever inbecause i haven't been here too long, i was wondering what this forum was like a couple of years ago.
the reason i'm asking is that i've been noticing alot of new ones joining.
has that always been the case or does it seem like they are increasing more rapidly now?
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Strawberryfieldsforever
Because I haven't been here too long, I was wondering what this forum was like a couple of years ago. The reason I'm asking is that I've been noticing alot of new ones joining. Has that always been the case or does it seem like they are increasing more rapidly now?
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Whats your favorite TV show?
by dustyb in.
i personally liked ren and stimpy.
they were funny.. (edited)
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Joan of Arcadia
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How do you view your parents ????? very tough question !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
by run dont walk inbeing brought up in the borg since birth, i beleived everything my parents taught me and showed me, i looked up to them, they were my heroes in life.. now, i look back, they lied to me, cheated me, mislead me, did not look out for my best interests, and abadonned me when i needed them the most,.
i have nothing good to say about them (or my brothers and sisters), like to tie them both to a tree and ----- them.
they are very stupid people.. i'm sure i will wrestle with this the rest of my life.. thanks so much watchtower bible and tract society !!!!!!!!!!
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Strawberryfieldsforever
My Mom was so strict with me. I hated that. But I knew she did love me. It was just warped. I always wonder what life would have been like if she wasn't a JW. Maybe we would have had a better relationship. Maybe not....
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Do you ever mention to anyone you were a JW ??? or keep it secret ???
by run dont walk in.
workmates, friends, school friends etc,.
do you ever mention it, or if someone asks you your religion, do you ever mention it, or keep it in your past ??
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Strawberryfieldsforever
I always avoided conversations about religion, cause I knew eventually it would come up. I think thats what made me a loner. I was always afraid that someone would find out that I was one of "those people". I found it hard to relate to people and didn't dare to get close to anyone.
Now I am just starting to come out of my shell. I tell people about my experiences in there and I'm amazed how much they listen and ask questions. They do feel sorry for the way I was brought up. I think that these people will end up being good friends to me. It's great to get it out in the open and be honest about my past.
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SOME PEOPLE CONSIDER JWS A NUISANCE
by badboy in.
i understand from 1 of mum's friends that in a certain road near the kh that people have put notices saying they don't want jws knocking on their door etc.. also 1 persons has put on (their door?
) asking them`y r u persecuting me by knocking on my door' sort of things etc with newspaper cuttings on her door.. did something similiar happen in your area?
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Strawberryfieldsforever
Yes I saw something like that. When we were in rural territories in service, we would come across gates with signs "No trespassing. That means you too Jehovah's witnesses!". I also remember one sign that said "All trespassers including Jehovah's witnesses will be shot!". Of course you always had the hard headed ones who would say"Lets go and find out why they feel that way". Geeeesh...just leave them alone if thats what they want. I would never go with them. Too embarassing
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Talk to Me!
by Salas7 inany one want meet a new friend, i'm your man (boy)!!
i'm from england in felixstowe congregation.
so hi everyone and talk to me soon.
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Strawberryfieldsforever
Welcome Salas7!!!
Hope you find some good friends on this board. Tell us about yourself!
Strawberryfieldsforever