Posts by Strawberryfieldsforever

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Please...I need your help

by Strawberryfieldsforever in

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friends

my heart is heavy as i write this letter.

i have been trying to live my life as best that i can since leaving jehovah's witnesses.

my dad was not a witness and was my rock when i left the religion.

I am sad to say that my Mom never responded to my letter.....I have waited all this time thinking that maybe she was giving it time to think about it. But my Mom was never one to give anything time. She knew in her heart when she wrote me her e-mail letter that it would be her last.

Now I must go on without my Mom. You have all been so kind offering advice and as you can see, I used many quotes from some of you.....thank you with all my heart.

I need to stop banging myself over the head over this and stop crying and just somehow find the courage to go on. It's hard tho when your Mom is still alive and healthy and able to share last moment quality time before one of us dies.....at least in a terrible accident or some trauma like that, you know that your loved one is dead and you need to go on and make the best of a bad situation and get some kind of closure. But that doesn't happen with JW's. Your loved ones are still alive and able to communicate with you, but you can't talk to them. Very unfair....

Thank you again.

Strawberryfieldsforever

57

Please...I need your help

by Strawberryfieldsforever in

jw
friends

my heart is heavy as i write this letter.

i have been trying to live my life as best that i can since leaving jehovah's witnesses.

my dad was not a witness and was my rock when i left the religion.

Strawberryfieldsforever

Well, I wrote my letter. I slept on it and I used all the wonderful advice from so many of you. I feel at peace at what I wrote. Here it is.

Dear Mom,

I was afraid this was going to happen and I really don't know why you are questioning me about this. I respect your beliefs and have no intention of trying to change your views and I was hoping you would respect my ways and despite our differences, we could find common ground. I just wanted to be your daughter and you be my mother. That is all I wanted.

As for apostate literature, I only researched the archives of older WT literature and current also. Your can find scanned archives on the internet. If I am guilty of reading apostate material to research Jehovah's Witnesses, then I ask you if the societies own literature is apostate? Is the bible apostate?

I do not oppose any religious faith including yours. I simply want to be respected for not having any religious faith by choice. I love God and his son's sacrifice and I try to live my life as scripturally as I can.

I was hoping to include you in my life and tell you about my activities and our new home and new surroundings. Dad always wanted us to have a better relationship and I am trying because I really want to. I know Dad would have been proud of me for trying. If you do not respond to this e-mail then I know it is over. And...it is not what I wish to happen. Love, your daughter.

I feel good about the letter and I thank you all for your loving support in this difficult time for me. I feel like I can go on now....sad....but that is what this cult does to families. Thank you again! p.s. She has not written back yet....

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Please...I need your help

by Strawberryfieldsforever in

jw
friends

my heart is heavy as i write this letter.

i have been trying to live my life as best that i can since leaving jehovah's witnesses.

my dad was not a witness and was my rock when i left the religion.

Strawberryfieldsforever

steve2, you are right. I can't lie and maybe it is time to say goodby. I can't believe I am saying it....why does it have to be so hard? Clarity, I will sleep on it because I am too emotional right now. steve2, you are right about going on with my life and the people who love me unconditionally. I hope I am not being hasty saying this. I know my mom has not really been part of my life except on and off (like a light bulb), but I never stopped loving her like so many of you feel about your lost loved ones in this destructive cult...

Strawberry

57

Please...I need your help

by Strawberryfieldsforever in

jw
friends

my heart is heavy as i write this letter.

i have been trying to live my life as best that i can since leaving jehovah's witnesses.

my dad was not a witness and was my rock when i left the religion.

Strawberryfieldsforever

Thank you "ding" You're right. I just want to be her daughter. I would never push my ideas on her. I just want her to love me unconditionally and to try and make her remember times when she was not a Jehovah's Witness.

Strawberry

57

Please...I need your help

by Strawberryfieldsforever in

jw
friends

my heart is heavy as i write this letter.

i have been trying to live my life as best that i can since leaving jehovah's witnesses.

my dad was not a witness and was my rock when i left the religion.

Strawberryfieldsforever

Thank you for the advice. I am writing down so many things on paper from all of you. I need to have it beside me when I write her the letter. I like your advice "searcher" and "a bible student". You have all been so kind. I will keep writing idea's down and not be too quick to write my Mom. I have to be very careful what I say.

Do you think I am on the right track trying to make her remember good times and the love of her family? If I can keep the lines of communtication open, should I keep trying to snap her out of this fog she is in? I know there are so many of you in pain like I am. I appreciate your coments and will listen to your advice.

Strawberry

57

Please...I need your help

by Strawberryfieldsforever in

jw
friends

my heart is heavy as i write this letter.

i have been trying to live my life as best that i can since leaving jehovah's witnesses.

my dad was not a witness and was my rock when i left the religion.

Strawberryfieldsforever

My heart is heavy as I write this letter. I have been trying to live my life as best that I can since leaving Jehovah's witnesses. My Dad was not a witness and was my rock when I left the religion. My mom did not talk to me for the better part of 13 years. I am happy with my husband and we have gone into early retirement. Something was missing tho.....and that was my mom. Through all of the years even tho she won't communticate with me, I still love her and I miss her....

I thought that if I e-mailed her and kept trying to trigger some memories in her head about the past and me and my Dad and our lives together would help her see how much I miss her. I would bring up happy times and even funny times that maybe would make her smile and for just a few minutes forget about her religion and remember her family. You see, I am the only child and my Dad has now died, and she really has no family because our family was so small.

When I started e-mailing, she actually responded! She asked about our new home in the mountains and what it was like and how our health is. I was so happy to be able to at least write her and talk to her! My heart soared with hearing from her!! My plan was to talk about daily activites and what we were doing and the weather, anything I could think of. It made me so happy to tell her about my life.

I just received an e-mail from her this morning. She said she enjoyed my e-mails, but she was concerned that I didn't love Jehovah anymore and that I was reading apostate material on the net and she said that would be a dividing point for us. She wanted to know if I was still reading apostate material and to be truthful and write her back...

I do not want to lose this last little bit of communication with her because I know it will be the last. How sad I am.....please help me know what to say to her because it will probably be the last e-mail and contact I will ever have with my mom who I love so much. I want to at least say something that may make her think. If it's my last e-mail, I want to try to trigger something to help her without being cruel because I love her.

Strawberryfieldsforever

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I'm turning myself in. Lurking elders, are you listening?

by Eve Deceived in

i think it's fitting for my very first post to be a thread on jw.net turning myself in to any lurking elders out there on a witch-hunt to cleanse the congregation so that god's choosen ones can "remain in god's love.

" so i'm sorry to all you awesome, truthful apostates on this site, but this thread is really intended for any lurking nazis -- i mean, the taliban -- ugh, i mean elders of the world's most "loving" cult religion.. i am an apostate.

here, i'll save you the trouble:.

Strawberryfieldsforever

WELCOME ELIZABETH!

I look forward to watching this story continue.....what fun!!

Strawberry

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Resigned being an elder

by subytrek in

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friends

i am new here and this is my first post although i have lurked here for a couple years.

i started having doubts about the org back then and my curiosity overcame my fear of so-called apostate websites so here i am.

i just resigned being an elder 2 weeks ago.

Strawberryfieldsforever

WELCOME!

I just somehow lost what I wrote you! I just wanted to say that I am happy to see that you are getting out so young. My husband and I got out when we were in our early 30's. We wanted our children to be somewhat normal in school. Going to school as a JW does permanent damage to a child....believe me when I say that.

We have been able to enjoy life and are even building our little dream house in the mountains. We are in early retirement and on a narrow bridge with our budget. But we are not afraid. We are enjoying life each and every day here and now.

My mother kept saying to me.....I will have lots of children in the paradise earth....I will learn to play the piano in the paradise earth.....I will learn to skate like Peggy Fleming in the paradise earth....everything was on hold until the paradise earth....how sad.

Enjoy life now and your child too!!! My husband and I will be thankful every time we look at those beautiful mountains that we are able to do that and had the courage to get out of a bad situation....

Strawberry

20

Who have you lost?

by Strawberryfieldsforever in

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friends

i was just thinking the other day how small our family is now that we aren't jw's.

we are thankful that we at least have our children!

my husband lost his mom and dad and only sister and her husband and all their children.

Strawberryfieldsforever

Oh loislane..I loved what you wrote! You have a way with words. You should be a writer! And I never thought about living in a paradise on earth now! What a great way to look at it. Free and enjoying life each and every day the way we choose. Life is good!

Darthweef...I'm on the same page with you. Good riddance to them. I was labled an apostate by my Mom when I asked her simple questions that had been bothering me...she asked me if I was looking at those internet sites that Satan used. I asked her why I couldn't have questions and put my faith to the test like the bible tells us too......she said the society does that for us She won't talk to me anymore and she won't even let me know if a family member has passed away. I want unconditional love........

Strawberry

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Who have you lost?

by Strawberryfieldsforever in

jw
friends

i was just thinking the other day how small our family is now that we aren't jw's.

we are thankful that we at least have our children!

my husband lost his mom and dad and only sister and her husband and all their children.

Strawberryfieldsforever

I was just thinking the other day how small our family is now that we aren't JW's. We are thankful that we at least have our children! My husband lost his Mom and Dad and only sister and her husband and all their children. I lost only my Mom since I am an only child. My heart goes out to everyone here who has lost family. Who have you lost?

Strawberry