i havent prayed in years.
i quit praying while i was still going to meetings.
i stopped praying when my elder ex would pack the kids in the car and say if i didnt go to the meeting then i wouldnt see them again.
This thread hits home for me.I want to pray and feel close to god.But im still too angry.If he is the god whom I have been taught he is then he seems like someone who needs constant attention, and is very selfish and mean kinda like a very spoiled child.
On the other hand I do see the beautiful things of life.I want to heal enough to believe he exists again.And to feel close to him.
But Ill first have to be able to see a different god than the god I see now.
Kat
hi, everyone.................well, the shite has finally hit the fan...........i'm meeting with the superintendent, head of personnel and my boss today at 1:00 over the "comment/incident" of february 25, 2004. i will have union representation with me........my union steward and the president of the union.
the comment was personally inappropriate and i'm sorry it ever came out of my mouth.
the only defense i have is that i was angry at the time and stressed with some heavy personal stuff.
sending all my positive thoughts and good vibes.....
i had this french stuff named "angel" by theirry mugler and it drove my g/f wild.
but it got stolen, and the downside of it is its 100 bucks roughly a bottle.
i don't mind paying, i was just wondering if there's any other good smelling cologne, because i hate going into stores to "shop around".
design,ysatis,paris and nikki de saint phaelle.... depends on my mood
based on a discussion last night and a request to write something about it i went hunting through some old posts and found this one.
emotional blackmail and jws.
we were discussing whether it is emotional abuse when the elders visit us after we have left and wind up being nasty or try to pressure us to go back.. so i was thinking - what are some of their tactics and would they fit into this category?.
kalela,
first of all WELCOME! I only found this forum a bit over a month ago and can tell you its been very helpful.I also am blackmailed by family members.Its wondertful to find those who can understand.
i have a hard time coping with it, seeing as i have an anxiety disorder.
how do you not think of things like work, relationships, money, getting a cat, etc.
without freaking out?
ohhh I agree with blondie hugging my dog can be very relaxing.
i have a hard time coping with it, seeing as i have an anxiety disorder.
how do you not think of things like work, relationships, money, getting a cat, etc.
without freaking out?
when ever I have tried backing down on meds I begin to have problems too.I took paxil for awhile but didnt like some of the side effects , now I take lexapro.I dont have any side effects that I can tell and been on it over a year now.
i have a hard time coping with it, seeing as i have an anxiety disorder.
how do you not think of things like work, relationships, money, getting a cat, etc.
without freaking out?
I also have an anxiety disorder.And have fought it and dealt with it for many years.I have had some relief from strenious exercise.
Also have found a support group helpful.But several years ago the doctor because of my extreme anxiety put me on anti depressants.I had tried them in the past and didnt like them at all.But needless to say this time they worked.
Not that I feel antidepressants are the best way to deal with these things.But for me it turned down the constant mind chatter of worry to something tolerable.
I feel a much happier person which i didnt expect and Damn if i dont enjoy my life now.
there was a lot of threads that i've seen recently asking where everyone is at.
so i thought i could just make a reference thread for everyone to reference to when they're wondering.
share if you want to!.
washington state here not too far from mulan actually.lol a ferry ride away.
my question is regards to family though.
does missing your mother ever get easier?
does not wanting to hurt her or even others in the congregation get easier?
im sorry that your having to deal with the loss of family.I also have lost the relationship with my mother who I will probably never see again she has decided she will not ever be the same place i am.
Also my daughter is shunning me as well.It does hurt ALOT but i think i would be more miserable to be who others want me to be instead of being true to myself.
i don't usually start non-jw threads, but i was wondering about other places to move to.
i live in atlanta and while i love a lot of things about it, sometimes i think about moving on.
i was in south florida for the first thirty-five years and have been here for the last fourteen.
Seattle. Shhh but its a really beautiful place and we just want people to think it rains all the time.
