Hi RR,
Thanks for your post. Just wanted to let you know how much I can relate to your story. My family faded from the Org when I was 10. However, my still believing father, still believed most, if not all of the teachings.
I also dealt with an alcoholic Dad, abuse and being the "outsider" as a kid. I remember arguing with the neighborhood kids about there being no hell. Not only were we JW's, we also had to deal with the chaos of a substance abusing parent. Either one of those is a nightmare, but both is overwhelmingly difficult to overcome. I struggled with a lot of depression in my 20's. I'm almost 40 now.
I also understand the about the "winds" changing at the WTS. After nearly 20 years of shunning but JW relatives want to have contact again. I did ask one if the rules of changed, he responded "No" and informed me that he would NOT "debate" the issue. As I explore this website and other sources, the flip-flopping (new light) back and forth is appalling.
I also had a similiar experience with my Father that you had with your Mother regarding my children. Now, granted he didn't say it to "ME" because I would have become completely unglued. Anyway, he expressed to my step-mother that he just didn't understand why I was having children because the were going to die anyway. Big suprise that he doesn't have much contact with them.
Welcome to the board!
Andee