Long time no post. I've been swamped with homework, this has made fading a whole lot easier! I have to come clean on something i am sort of involved with a girl in the cong. Hindsite tells me that it was a big mistake and now i realize it. Me not being baptized has obviously caused a stink with the elders. But thankfully this "relationship" is coming to an end. She started it she pursued me, now i'm going to end it. On the worldly girl front i've been in contact with a high school crush, and i'm going to see her in a few weeks!!!!!! And what's with the term worldly, that's garbage if you ask me. My moms on a vacation and i'm tired of hearing about the brothers in other countries, "oh they need so much help" well not from me mommy!!! Just had to vent a few things. Talk to yall later!
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2JV's Back
by JV inlong time no post.
i've been swamped with homework, this has made fading a whole lot easier!
i have to come clean on something i am sort of involved with a girl in the cong.
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A question for former pioneers.
by JV ineverytime you go to an assembly or to a convention or the co pays a visit, there's always a call for people to pioneer.
they always drag out a couple of pioneers on to the stage and "interview" them.
the one question they always ask is if the pioneers have any regrets over pioneering.
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Everytime you go to an assembly or to a convention or the co pays a visit, there's always a call for people to pioneer. They always drag out a couple of pioneers on to the stage and "interview" them. The one question they always ask is if the pioneers have any regrets over pioneering. Well, any regrets out there? Any former pioneers have regrets? Bad pioneering experiences they'd like to share?
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Another JV update
by JV inwell we had the co's visit tonight.
i can feel myself fading slowly away, i even called up some of my "worldly friends" and i even called up a girl who i had a huge crush on in high school with whom i've lost touch over the years.
why is everybody so chipper when the co visits?
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Just on another side bar i've got to get off my chest. I could go missing for a month and nobody would give a damn, but if i don't turn in my frigging service report, then they send out the blood hounds looking for you, what's up with that? I'm just a bitter s.o.b. but that's just my two cents worth
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Another JV update
by JV inwell we had the co's visit tonight.
i can feel myself fading slowly away, i even called up some of my "worldly friends" and i even called up a girl who i had a huge crush on in high school with whom i've lost touch over the years.
why is everybody so chipper when the co visits?
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Well we had the CO's visit tonight. I can feel myself fading slowly away, i even called up some of my "worldly friends" and i even called up a girl who i had a huge crush on in high school with whom i've lost touch over the years. Why is everybody so chipper when the CO visits? There were people there that i hadn't seen in months but when the CO comes around they're all there smiles on their face, the elders with big grins on thier faces, i'm tired, i feel worn down trying to keep up apperances, playing the fake game. I'm just about ready to throw in the towel, and the good thing is i'm not baptized so i can just wash my hands and walk away, just thought i'd let everybody know
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A JV update
by JV inwell, today's monday, i've got tons of homework of the secular vareity, that should keep me occupied for awhile.
just wanted to say i've been reading all the other posts on my other thread, just taking it all in right now.
tomorrow's the big co's visit.
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I'm really pumped to go back to school, this is my second kick at the can, so i'm ready to do it right, i'm taking a program i like and the job prospects are good when im done. I'm not a born and raised jw, i've been off and on for 3 years, so i've got one foot in each door, it's a weird feeling.
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A JV update
by JV inwell, today's monday, i've got tons of homework of the secular vareity, that should keep me occupied for awhile.
just wanted to say i've been reading all the other posts on my other thread, just taking it all in right now.
tomorrow's the big co's visit.
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Well, today's monday, i've got tons of homework of the secular vareity, that should keep me occupied for awhile. Just wanted to say i've been reading all the other posts on my other thread, just taking it all in right now. Tomorrow's the big CO's visit. We'll see if i get hassled for not turning in my service report. Sometimes i feel that they care more about that stupid sheet of paper than a person. I have a feeling that they'll take me aside before the meeting and say that they want to have a talk with me and mabey the co see what's happening, why i haven't been going out in service, etc... I've made it known that i suffer with depression, yet nothing. Even after there was an awake on mood disorders and depression, nothing. Just wanted to say that i'm getting a secular education and there's nothing that will dissuade me. You can't go through life on a high school education, mabey 25 years ago but not today, Anyways, back to my homework
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A boiling pot of emotions
by JV ini'm not baptized, but i do go out in service, not much now that i'm getting a post secondary education.
i wasn't raised a jw and this is where i run into a lot of problems, the things i like to do don't really jive with the wts.
i played comptive sports in high school and college.
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I'm just doing some homework today, just trying to de stress, didn't go to the meeting, suprise suprise nobody called to see how i'm doing, cause i'm not born and raised so that means i'm not one of the gang so they don't care. thanks for all the replies, just reading all of them taking it all in
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A few questions for a fence sitter
by JV inwhat goes on at elders meetings?
i'm curious, how do they know things that i've told people in confidence?
what do they talk about, do that have a list of people and then talk about every single person?
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What goes on at elders meetings? I'm curious, how do they know things that i've told people in confidence? What do they talk about, do that have a list of people and then talk about every single person?
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A boiling pot of emotions
by JV ini'm not baptized, but i do go out in service, not much now that i'm getting a post secondary education.
i wasn't raised a jw and this is where i run into a lot of problems, the things i like to do don't really jive with the wts.
i played comptive sports in high school and college.
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It's sunday morning, i'm not going to the meeting, i've got too much homework. I just want to clarify a few things, it was 230 in the morning when i first posted so please forgive me if my post wasn't clear. My mother is a witness in fact she just got baptized last weekend. She wasn't raised a jw but she started studying 5 years ago and by osmosis i sort of picked up on it. I'm not doing it for a girl, there are plenty of fish in the sea, and most witness girls i meet are very immature, i guess it's being sheltered all their lives. I've struggled with depression for a long time and i'm trying to pick my self back up by going back to school and i'm gonna try to make something of myself
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A boiling pot of emotions
by JV ini'm not baptized, but i do go out in service, not much now that i'm getting a post secondary education.
i wasn't raised a jw and this is where i run into a lot of problems, the things i like to do don't really jive with the wts.
i played comptive sports in high school and college.
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I'm not baptized, but i do go out in service, not much now that i'm getting a post secondary education. I wasn't raised a JW and this is where i run into a lot of problems, the things i like to do don't really jive with the wts. I played comptive sports in high school and college. I have a competitve streak in me i need that competition but i can't play, bad association. So i decided to play golf, sound's ok playing by myself nobody else, but it takes up too much time. I feel like a caged animal i do nothing but sit in my room waiting for the next day. I don't do anything bad but why do i feel like crap? nobody in my cong can relate to me. I'm on my own it's tough. I get the feeling that nobody cares. That's not totally true the awesomest person in the world is in my cong and i would say that if i was a jw or a non jw. What i mean to say is that i feel like the elders don't care. I 've been struggling with depression for the longest time but not a phone call to check up say hi. Oh wait that's not true i got one the other day cause i didn't turn in my service report. I'm miserable. I've got nobody to turn too. I feel like crap for wanting to do things that make me good like playing sports etc.... I'm just frustrated, I think that sums it up best. I feel like im slowly going insane. I've been reading some other posts, the ones that i feel a connection to are the ones saying that the got singled out on the platform, that's bs. We had a local needs the other day about talking to people before and after the meetings, saying hi and telling people how you're doing. I know it was directed at me because i come in sit down and go home, don't really talk to anybody, it's all small talk anyways. The jist of the talk was that we should tell people how we're doing good bad etc... We'll i'm sorry if i don't want to tell strangers ( that's what they are because even though i've been going there for two years i'm still a stranger to them) how i feel. I don't want to tell somebody I'm depressed and feel like jumping off a bridge at the meetings, that talk was total bs. I'm just frustrated sorry if i go off on a tangent. Just a few side bars, do active and ex jw's post? or is it mostly all ex's? Cause i have a feeling that if the elders found out i'd be in trouble. See that's the problem always having to look over my back. I have alot of non jw friends from high school, but all of a sudden they're bad association. I hung out with a girl from high school the other day and i saw one elders wife in the food court at the mall, i know she saw me and me being a single guy i'm surprised i haven't heard anything about it. Anyways i just wanted to post, get some things off of my chest, see the replies.