POI, I cannot bear even to think about such things -let alone watch a video! God will have to provide reasons one day. Same as you feel, I do not know if I would be able to accept those reasons, at least when I think about it now I cannot understand, and figure that there cannot be any justification from my sense of good and bad but i have chosen to trust and put my good faith in God and wait for his explanation. I just cannot believe that he is to blame. I trust him with my life. I will wait and see what He has to say and then I will see if my heart can accept it. Deep in my heart, I just know that he is innocent..