*giggles @ Dan-O* It's a girl thing. :P
CeriseRose
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Flower Soap??
by Sassy inok.. my mom and grandmother always had pretty soaps in the bathroom.. but i ran into these on the net and was in awe.... .
can you believe these are not real?
but truly soap??
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Ridicule or Reason on JWD? What do you do?....
by ScoobySnax indo you think its right to ridicule jws on this forum or reason with them?
so many threads.
so many strong personalities.
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CeriseRose
I find it highly ironic that Scooby makes this post on his opinion of certain threads/topics and how he likes/doesn't like them. I did the same thing, in a respectful way, on one of his threads and was patronised, called uptight, and my 'newness' on the forum the cause of my apparently unenlightened opinion.
What I don't understand Scooby, is why it's okay when you're the one with the opinion or doing the ridiculing. You're pointing fingers at others for what they do here, but really, can you honestly say you haven't spent time ridiculing others here? Or at the very least pushing some buttons for a reaction?.
I also notice that you don't answer your own subject questions...why not? Like this one. Do you ridicule or reason? What is your purpose for your threads?
And maybe I'm not destined for spending time on Scooby's threads. They always seem like they could be interesting topics from the subject line, and I keep heading in to read, but very soon it's apparent they are jabs at others, or at the very least, critiquing others, which is just not where I want to live my life.
But then what do I know. I'm just some 1's and 0's across the world. And these are just my 2 cents, which in CDN funds, is almost nothing. *shrug*
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An apology to you all...
by CeriseRose ini just finished commenting on minimus' thread (oh man, i hope it was his thread now...not enough coffee yet to be fully brained today...).
anyway, it was the thread on how everyone was choosing to leave/has left from the org.
i hate with a passion the fact that i was judged while in the wts.
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CeriseRose
Thanks for your responses. I know I'm not the only one who has gone through this and I guess that's why I wanted to post. Partly because I needed to for me, to be true to myself and the values I want to hold now. And partly because I knew out of anyone in the world, you all would understand.
I'm not beating myself up about it; I don't really run on regrets. That's who I was, I've 'seen the error of my ways' and now want to set the record straight.
*hugs*
Welcome to the board Feisoul!
Sunngal41 I left a post on your Astrololgy thread but it may be buried now. If you have any response, I'd love to hear it. :)
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An apology to you all...
by CeriseRose ini just finished commenting on minimus' thread (oh man, i hope it was his thread now...not enough coffee yet to be fully brained today...).
anyway, it was the thread on how everyone was choosing to leave/has left from the org.
i hate with a passion the fact that i was judged while in the wts.
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CeriseRose
I just finished commenting on Minimus' thread (oh man, I hope it was his thread now...not enough coffee yet to be fully brained today...). Anyway, it was the thread on how everyone was choosing to leave/has left from the Org.
I hate with a passion the fact that I was judged while in the WTS. I've said elsewhere on this board how demoralizing and inhumane I found it. And it all of a sudden hit me. I did the same thing to others...not JWs and their personal choices and activities (or lack thereof), I was very compassionate around those who were struggling or having problems. But I fully judged and branded those who left the organization, going along with the 'company line,' without thinking about the people behind it or their possible reasons for why they'd leave.
Now, I know that I was doing what I was told, part of the brainwashing. But before the JWs invaded my life I did have compassion and empathy, and didn't judge others.
You all are the faceless and nameless people I judged. And I am humbled at the depth of caring, concern, love, and downright humanity you all display, even when you disagree with one another. I know you didn't know, but I judged you and found you lacking by standards that were unfair and inhumane. I was so very very very wrong and for that I apologize.
And I'd like to thank you all for showing that caring in active and honest ways. I needed this place desperately after leaving JWs. I still do (although not as desperately). Thank you all for being here.
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Which Way Did You Choose To Leave The Organization?
by minimus infor me it was the slow, purposeful fade....and you?
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CeriseRose
I spent about 2 years erratic with meetings, but always managed some field service each month.
When I got tired of dealing with the
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Consternation
by SixofNine inthis word has fallen into such disuse (is that a word?
), that i had to check the dictionary to make sure it is a real word.
it's a shame when things aren't appreciated, so please take a moment to appreciate "consternation", and while we're at it, let's give homage to "perturbation", badger (teacher appreciation day), joyzabel (birthday), and dads who read stories to they babies every night.
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CeriseRose
hehe I use the word consternation a lot. I'm working on not feeling that way so much though.
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Was the "Beware the Voice of Strangers" talk given at all the conventions?
by somebodylovesme inquestion for all ye wise folks in the know -.
was the "beware the voice of strangers" talk (http://quotes.watchtower.ca/bewarethevoiceofstrangers.htm) given at the district conventions last summer?
i'm not terribly familiar with how that works.
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CeriseRose
Yes it was. The convention program is worldwide, the same talks are given (they're 'canned' so the verbiage is the same).
Usually the talks become Watchtower study articles over the next year or so.
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what do you miss most about being in the truth!?!?!
by dh inc'mon now, there has to be something... the green carpet or the hard seats?
barn dances?
large social gatherings?
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CeriseRose
I miss my sister, and one or two friends. Otherwise, I don't miss having my every activity scrutinized and judged, the gossipy, backstabbing, demoralizing atmosphere, the constant push to do more and the resulting feelings of inadequacy.
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Checklist of Theocratic Goals
by 4JWY intime to crack the whip!
admit it - you had this posted on your fridge!
i was just thinking - how many people have this many goals?
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CeriseRose
I got about a 1/4 way through that list and had to stop reading because I just felt exhausted.
I never really got it when my coworkers said they couldn't believe how busy I always was. hehe
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Going back to school...
by CeriseRose inwell, i've started back to university, which had gotten a little sidelined by my jw experience.
about 15 years ago i'd done a few semesters of college, but really didn't know what i wanted to do in life.
i went to business college, entered the workforce, and right about the time i was going to go back to school, was brought into the jws by a coworker.
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CeriseRose
Well, I've started back to University, which had gotten a little sidelined by my JW experience. About 15 years ago I'd done a few semesters of college, but really didn't know what I wanted to do in life. I went to business college, entered the workforce, and right about the time I was going to go back to school, was brought into the JWs by a coworker. All educational goals were sidelined as I awaited the 'new system' where I could do what I wanted (yadda yadda yadda).
A few years ago I decided I wanted to upgrade my career skills. So I was taking some night classes and weekend classes (boy, were those a subject of controversy, my one Saturday a month for 6 months where I finished a Technical Writing certificate and how awful it was that I did it...*rolls eyes*), and last October decided that I wanted to go for a Bachelor's degree. I started with one course (web based correspondence), and have spent the last 6 months slogging it out through a demanding work schedule, leaving the JWs and all the related emotional turmoil, being out of work, and doubting my own ability to do this at this point in my life. (Okay not just doubting my ability, but firmly convinced several times that I could not do this, was completely insane and lacked the staying power to do it.)
I got my grade about a week ago. An A! I'm so happy, and so proud of myself. The other good news I got was all my credits from 15 years ago have been applied to the degree program...so now I'm actually 1/4 of the way to my degree!
I know I'm blowing my own horn, and I feel some reflex shame at my lack of humility (*sigh*), but I really am pleased. I worked really hard and it paid off. And I also wanted to post in case there's anyone else who's made it out with less of an education than they want...it -is- possible to do it...and I hope that if you really want to, you do!
And now I have 2 more courses starting this week.