I read about propel.. And I must admit to myself, I'm right there too, maybe further. I'm in my twenties, a non-Jw university student. And I met this girl, also in her twnties, a Jw, last year. From the very beginning we have had a close bond between us. I guess I can say we connect very well. First time ever feeling to be able to discuss about everything, about things that have hurt me and vice versa, she had a chance to really open up herself, talk to me about things in her past. Everyone has their darkest secrets, but not like these. It's not only friendship though. We're also very attracted to each other. And ever since I first talked with her, I've known she is the kind of a person I want a life with. Really.
She's the most important person to me in my life. And yes, I love her.
The thing is she gets a lot of pressure from her family and her people because of me. I do feel bad for her and sometimes I wonder if it would be better for her if I walked away. But I know she is deeply in love with me too. I could never do it to her, not even for her sake. Sometimes I wish she'd get rid of me so she could have her peace. But in my heart I know that's not what I want. I hate the fact that some society is standing on our way, condemning her, threatening her to be thrown outside, telling her lies. I know I can bear up with this situation for the rest of my life if needed.
I've made up my mind. I won't give up until she want's me to. Wise choice? Definitely not. But it's against my nature, my principles, against a free man's world to give up on someone just because someone else doesn't want two people to have something beautiful.
