Saki' I feel for you. I wanted those things too, for me and my children.
My mother is very bitter because she was promised she would not grow old before the new system came. She was told not to marry and have children. My grandmother, who became a JW in the 40's and was told she would never get old, died in her mid eighties a few years ago. She never thought she would be a great grandmother.
Far as my own mother goes...It's a good thing that she did get married, because the end didn't come and she is now a grandmother with children who care about what happens to her in her advancing years. At least one of her children do, me, and I'm the black sheep in the family.
We all want an ideallic life for our children in a world that we don't have to worry about them. Unfortunately, this is the one we've got to work with and that's why I think that all of us, believers and non believers, need to do what they can to make it a better place for the next generation.
Other things that occur to me as a parent when I used to lay awake at night wondering where Jehovah was;
Would you punish all of your children and grandchildren for one transgression if your 'first born'? Would you literally watch them suffer and die for millenia because of one bad decision if you had the ability to fix it?
Would you let them suffer and die just to prove that they needed a parent?
Would you demand that one child give up its life to forgive the mistake of the firstborn?
I wouldn't, I don't see how any loving parent could.
essie
ps if anyone replies to this and I don't answer today it's because the website keeps logging me out and then not letting me back in till the next day for a reason I have no idea of.