Oh, Roski. I am so sorry about your son. I cannot think of anything that is more unnatural or painful than losing a child ((((((((((Roski)))))))))) I hope you will find the answers that you seek.
Bem said:
"Essie, 'the five people you meet in heaven' is about be a tv movie or mini series. unless it has already been seen I remeber the ads for it.recently. Thanks anyway since I'm laid up I will get that book"
The movie was very good, it did the book justice. Very emotional, it effected me deeply.
As far as fearing death, I never have, I don't know why. Maybe because when I was little I was drilled into believing it's just a really deep sleep.
It seemed like an alluring friend to me in my depression at many points...thankfully I didn't give in to that and I'm still here. It's a miracle in more ways than one. But that is no thanks to the religion, it made me more suicidal than anything.
I still am not sure what to believe, so many things about death make no sense. But I'm just grateful that no one expects me to have all the answers anymore. That was pressure that no one needs, because no one can really say for certain until we get there ourselves.
essie